trip to asian water sport

though can finish the blog post by this evening, it look like it din work.......
yesterday i was going with my ta gang friend to water sport event, overall was very nice
the worse part is before this event my car was having accident, was scare that i could not attend this event, but lucky i could make some arrangement with organizer and parent.

during the way going to the destination i observe the puchong road with the future LRT, it was very was as i imaging the LRT bridge was finish building, leave the parking and LRT station still building up, it was very impact to me because i was thinking they haven reach this part yet

when we reach there we start to play banana boat, we was though it would be easy, but it does not, we almost fall down for 3 times, and make us feel tired and pain for my hand, that time was thinking can i continue play for 6 hours ? at the end i manage to play all the water sports.

and we move to our villa for our rest room, the design of villa was awesome, unfortunately i dun have the mode and knowledge to take picture of building, and after taking bath we start to have our bbq dinner, and some of us become chief , the volume of food is too much and is not able to finish up, and i feel was wated the food, unfortunately i cannot fill in more .......

after finish dinner it was 10pm++ and we just start to have some fun of it, same as usual we start to play the true or there game as perhentian trip and i was hold until 2am in the morning and go back my room and sleep, it was too difficult and main stream for me to wait until 6am and sleep for 2 hours (according my friend sare the same room with me)

too tired to continue type here is some of the pictures :)

as usual, when coming back it was too bred for nothing to do, and always recall back memory, 

tomorrow is working day as usual, Wednesday is a movie day with colleagues captain america 2 

hope tomorrow is a better begin :) 

start to think about the journey should i continue it or not ?

haiz.......

my holiday

Hmmm....... How should I start it?
Okay start with this.  Last week went to perhentian island with my ex-colleagues and friends. This time no more driving but we are going there by bus  3d2n and it cost rm400. Overall I feel the trip was awesome. A lot of first time experience happen there. First day we have try to practice snorkelling. and have a good chance to snorkelling. 

for the first experience i saw a lot of memo fish and coral in live is very beautiful and colourful. 

unfortunately i could not take photo under water, but lucky still got friend rent the under water camera from the resorts. 

during coming to perhentian, most of us could not sleep well in the bus due to the condition of the road condition. and the first day snorkelling we try to find shark for the last station, we feel damm tired due to searching the shark, and i almost too tired and fall cannot snooker. lucky i still can make it. some of us even more us than my situation after taking bath straight away sleep until the next day morning not need to have dinner. that first day of night we try to walk around the island, and we go to another resorts which better than ours we have drink in pub and play true or dare and the end of the first day. during sleeping time my friend said they might exchange hotel lol and the hostel will left me only i dun want to paid other money to exchange room. 

second day we are required to wake up early because we are going to redang it request for 1 hour to reach there. dunno why when reaching here they said have free time i feel bored and lost from the team. some go there, some want to go another place and i am the one who dun have direction, so what i did is just walk around and go snorkelling again. and i just discover or remember the movie "mo mo tea" is taken over here and i din bring camera, and i scad to request them to take picture, and i just miss like that. than we continue snorkelling again to another places. 

at night we are having bbq and go to same pub again but play different game and night t i left alone in the room haiz........... than we went back to kl

this is my first second trip actually, 

the first trip is going to PD for 2 days follow a friend family trip. 

and the last trip for me before i start the semester 2 level 2 is yesterday. eventually i decide to go celebrate independent day with friend by going dataran merdeka. but it look like fail but i manage to go broga hill with them and going to sungai tekala and watch movie at mid valley. 

it was an awesome day for me, because of unexpected and have a lot of fun. but unlucky i cannot enter their topic when having dinner after movie, and i feel my stomach cannot be taking any thing after taken late lunch around 4pm. 

when we go to broga hill we are taken a lot of photo which include me, previously i din take photo with people (shy)

a special note for her 

even though you said no but i feel i still want to stay close to you. 

《致我们终将逝去的青春》

原本说好原本下午12点开始做自己的课业，却被这部电影的主题给吸引住了。
看完这部电影，我突然有冲动的感觉说，我自己的生活是怎样的？
就说故事里头的精彩片头。
女主角郑微从一个不懂事的女大学生变成世界再也不陌生的女强人；
从过去的稚气变成…………我无法用字来形容自己的这部电影的感觉。

男主角陈孝正在感情与利益，却选择自己的利益。连自己的婚姻也是为了自己的利益。自己的爱情也只有在大学里和女主角郑微。多年以后自己找回郑微不求她挽回对自己的爱情自求重新和他开始，因为人生当中只有郑微改变过自己的爱情观。

从那一刻开始成熟的萌芽开始，冷酷的一面也慢慢地开幕起来。

大学里郑微，那长发的青春，却换成再换成职场上的短发的冷酷。看着自己的室友一个一个忘记子的梦想，忘记自己的青春。

 黎维娟看透了世界选择年龄50岁的男人作为自己的丈夫。

阮莞为了自己固执的爱情而失去自己的性命

傻傻稚气的朱小北变成成功学的小云，遇到自己的老友也得装不认识。 

电影片头就好像是《那些年》但过了大学毕业所有的事情都不一样。

看完影片，我就想到自己现在的生活到底是怎样？
我和大家一样经历过小学，中学，生活营以及现在的大学，甚至还在学院里打了工
我还和以往的朋友联络吗？我感觉自己的生活像一片空白。
我认为大家都没有错，错都是在于我不懂得分配，很多东西我都不能分配。 
到现在的我已经觉得说我的情绪已影响我的工作能力，我已有觉悟说70%肯定的说我要离开。
看到这部电影，我很想重新规划自己的生活。

fail to do it

this post i already prepare since 18 April, and i did not write anything until today 2 May.

currently, i feel i am tired, i ask myself, did i do my thing? did i perform my task?

i am tired of that, currently is 22 days after that, i feel is time for me to go.

second trip with TA - paintball

just finish another trip with TA just now or we can said from yesterday 3pm until today 1.30am

from Wednesday until yesterday, i was been wake up by alarm. currently feel is okay already if previously, if i wake up this situation i will be headache.

Yesterday was wake up early for special task in Mines@FBM. Some accident happen over there for the task, i believe is my over stress caused the problem. i cant stop myself to be overstress, exercise i also done already. dunno what can i do.

at 3pm we gather at university and we start to move to the paintball.after having briefing and we start to play. when i notice someone come in my team. because is my first time and i will definitely fail for the game.
but i dunno why for my first game i feel i can do better and the continue game i was playing well.

that time i was feel i am over crazy already or over fun, but i still discipline during the war of game.
i was totally feel good and success for it. and my stupid supervisor said how good is the iphone and how good it is compare with android, but he cannot take a good picture from iphone, below is the picture.

after paintball we having dinner together and watch movie again. GIJOE is the movie we watch, nothing special happen over there. but i was telling myself after overall. how many out going i still can having with them?

i also dun have the aswer, because i know i well be resign soon from the team for future purpose. 

after resign i know for sure we will least contact each other 

photo from the xtion paintball: 

if someone can saw the above picture you can find out there are few traitors 

a review night

is another night i could not sleep, if my mom know about it, she will said not enough exercise, but i think this night is because of food and problem with myself.

on yesterday (Wednesday) i was solve some of the problem with me with my working team leader. during solving i was very emotion, after discussion, i was like a almost explore balloon become a normal balloon.

almost forget what is my purpose to came in, and forget what is the purpose i still over at here.

working environment really difficult place, for me i dun have any words to describe it, it was very simple "work" but i could not take it so easy, because it might affect my normal life,

through working i know more friend and different kind of the friend;
through working i getting more knowledge and experience of the real world;
through working i find a different life style i can have.

lot of the things can be affect.

through the emotion i told myself i will resign soon on June or July, or i still maintain the same plan October
and start searching my internship.

and i might miss my first colleague in my life

miss them as colleague and miss them as friend

new level

semester break no more 2 months is only 1.5 months between level 1 and level 2.
as usual i will said the time is passing to fast, or i can said i dun manage myself properly.
TA life style is not a easy life style.
busy with work, even working in part time, but i feel i working in full time,
follow up the pending task and problem.
am i thinking over ? i dunno. what i know i need to concentrate on year 2
on semester break i try to set some target,
just 1 target have fulfil
start doing exercise, which should done last year March and i delay it for 9 months
such a good delay............
i want to have some revision for my programming courses, unlucky, change new house, only at new house has internet access. and is further than university,  what can i do ?
just continue only,

new semester start on next week,
i not sure i still can stay how long in the team, as i know i feel unbalance and upset, the time almost reach already

first time hang out over night

yesterday was the firrst time i hang out with friends, i was feel a bit excited to go, because first time went out and back late. someone will asking how about previous? why i din went out over night? the reason is very simple safety. my neighbour was having experience with thief after watching movie night show.

we have decide to meet at university around 6:30 but i went there around 3pm, due to boring and try to see who is over there. and i find out that there is only one person doing special task i was shock, there shouldn`t have only one person doing special task over there. and she was the person who also going to the gathering for movie and dinner, after i help her for awhile and i send her back to vista accommodation. around 6pm most of us reach there already, and get some bad news some of them could not attend for last minutes telling.

after that we went to a special shop for our dinner around pj, the address is:
LG006 & LG007, 
Millennium Square, Dataran Millennium PJ, 
98, Jalan 14/1, 46100 Petaling Jaya.LG006 & LG007, Millennium Square Jalan 14/1 
46200 Petaling Jaya, Malaysia

the food is not bad, but just the water is too expensive for me, overall expression is still okay 
here is the only one photo we have for yesterday, 

after that we go to Midvalley to watch our movie Jack and the giant slaver 

movie was very awesome, with good storyline, and the style they use as usual as a america movie. 
the funny part of the movie is our university advertising video was come out during the movie trial. we all like blur over there. and i not sure who was the person said need to do QC check which is a part of our job scope, all of us laughing at the person. 

after movie i bring another 4 persons went back home, which make me went back home very late around 1am i reach home, and i hope my family members was sleep already, actually is not, my father was wake up due to i am back home, i was shock because after that 3:30am he need to wake up already, feel sorry to him

at the end, yesterday was very nice day for me, and i hope next gathering or hang out with more people. 

miss a friend

a friend on last week is leaving me on Tuesday, and i though we still have 9 more months to go. as the girl tell me that she though 3 of us will last until end of this year. and i am thinking i will break her records because i am thinking i am the one who will be the first to be leave, but eventually is you,

i know you want to do this since long time ago, i notice this since last year October. you said we fulfil one year already, lets go we leave the team.

at that time i am thinking what have i contribute to the team? and my answer is no and some how i need income source so i decline your invite.

2nd feb you having open day at your house, unfortunately i need to attend my mom company annual dinner and meet a primary school friend and i post the facebook so unlucky.

in future i hope we still have chance to for gathering even though our home town is very far.

i still remember the first impression you give me, rich people and look down people. rich people can go trip without financial problem, due to that i think you always look down people.

currently i feel the way i think is not mature. after getting know well about you, i feel i am the one who look down other people when i start busy.

IAI assignment is our first assignment do together, and it was very successful, just the looping i do have some bug. our friend said it was impossible either 2 of us working together. but i think we have prove it we can do it.

i am typing this post for more than 3 weeks, i hope i din miss and forget anything between 2 of us but i already forget it

haiz.....................

a post for a moth update

i not sure i can type this finish or not, because i least update in blog, most of my update are too little and easy to get forget. So i decide update at twitter.
and i will do a summary for this post for my October situation.

Trainee period just finish, and my stress haven release, the tension still stay around with me.
and i believe a lot of people will said i am super hansap. and i hope this will change in future November
still cannot change i still very stress up when doing task, always multiple time to get things
few friend are leaving in the team and i will miss them a lot especially the twins, the twins is the cute girl i never meet before. i should remember what is my comment on them, every things is the same other than one is wear spec another is not, still remember the trainee briefing they can go early, but i cant feel jealous of that.

almost every day i stay back for the team and cannot fulfill my assignment and homework, hopefully i can finish my duty quota for lab and i can concentrate.

the war of "in between" is not just  happen during my work is also happen during between my friends

and i have a lot of lesson in October month

how many i can do and how can i do

This post should be post by last week, regarding comment to a trainee, but fail to do so, and with same title and post with this, i cant believe when i review my blog post last months i just post 3 post, it means i am too busy or too tired or stress

this is for my first post on Oct, last week i have set timetable for me, but fail to apply due to too general and something happen

Thursday is a nightmare for me
Friday is a suffering for me
Saturday is bluring for me
Today is a okay okay for me
i hope tomorrow is okay fine for me

haiz.......

In between

last week Saturday actually i have a post, but no more mood no more feeling regarding the post, and i delete it. let me recall my memory, since when i stop playing tetris ? i think it has been a month i never play, this month i always busy with the TA things, currently there is new recruitment drive, and i feel i need teach them something during duty, and i dunno why am i so motivated to teach them, and now i feel dun want to teach them any more,

i am back to origin when i become TA from trainee, blur. and i still remember last Tuesday to Thursday got heavy deployment from Mines to Ent3 and from main building to Incubator II this things was happen in between 2 days, it sound like we are plan well, eventually we are doing last minutes, on the next day, we receive info that we need to collect back ...... !!!!!!

i cant believe, we need to do that, and i was blur why they do that, after i know from staff there was VIP and important visitor will come to visit and we need to prepare the machines in those places. To allow them take picture.......... i was noting to said.

and another event happen, in lab there was another emergency for Corporate Training, Saturday should have   class for more than 20 machines are required, but it request last minutes again, and yesterday what i saw in lab there was no class.

this week totally like hell for me, and i in between the two person war this is what i can express

my feeling

i check back my blog, the last post of my blog is on last Saturday one week before. 

that time i still remember i become a head and having panic time in uni (task cannot finish), 

and this week is the of trainee coming into the team. 

how was my feel for the trainee period? in the previous trainee period, i was always looking at female 

same goes to this time, but with different feeling, the feeling that i receive info from parent about our family background. 

this week like very very very busy and stress, last week Sunday prepare the lab, currently the lab is having problem. need to be standby mode for repair the lab, it was so stress for me. 

" we must work smart but not work hard "

i still remember this sentence come out from my supervisor, i believe my work is fulfill his requirement, 

and same goes to yesterday

tension

on Monday, receive a boom news, i become a head of a department. become a assistant i was very panic now becomes another department head, totally i dun have any other idea. At that movement, i still dunno that today will be the tension day. as happen on Thursday morning, receive info from my assistant i need to prepare an image for today and i did the mistake until now

first mistake: using Windows server 2008 R2 standard
second mistake: download window server SP1 and install in standard format
third mistake: doing something wrong in material
forth mistake: know the standard server unable to use in native boot
fifth mistake: find a crash hard disk for creating image
sixth mistake: ...... i dun want to write it again

the current problem i am facing also is my finance problem. according my records, my expenses is getting more and more in following months. and i getting more4 money also from parents but not from my salary. in the same time i need to i need to solve my education fee, my loan haven come out yet from government.

some more i get a confirm information from my mom,
my dad had diabetes and it was a hereditary from my grandpa,
and now i know already why my father legs is get wound and currently i find out there are a lot of  medicine on his table.

now i know the time is passing so fast

tension tension tension

quality and efficiency

today go to university, just because of the meeting.
today meeting is mention about the efficiency of the member in the team.
i can observe that our team quality is not good as previous, example is me, i do not know anything, even i am  a department assistant, but i know where is my standard in the team and what is my knowledge standard in the team. my head is more efficiency and more knowledge than me, i cannot replace his position in current and cannot imaging what will happened when he leave the team.

in my mind i have imaging if i apply classes for the team and i know is not efficiency and useless

a busted day ==''

as mention yesterday post, i have invite by supervisor for the meeting i though i will be scold by him in the meeting but it does not, i have been invite be a board members = ='' i was a bit surprised, when he announced it, i though it will happened in my dream.

now i will be more responsible and more stress !!!

continue my java now

tomorrow is another big day

on Monday or early than that, i receive a message or special task from my supervisor, to do something and stay back on this Thursday after 6pm in lab, i do not know what task he want to past to me or i did somethings wrong and he want to punish me on tomorrow, just wait only i cant think so many things, because i still have a lot of think need to be complete especially the study

continue my study now

changing

A lot of changes is happen around me, especially related to college. Starting a new level and meet new friends is a good things for everyone including me. But unlucky this will not last longer for me. 

this semester i can said all is group assignment and having group member is my painful, i do not know i want to find who to becomes my members.and when we form the groups i feel like they are not really like to working together. 

make a big mistake !!!!!!

for TA, currently i just have become normal back, least mistake, but try to make it becomes zero. 

a shadow of me

just now, i am having dinner in a very, very busy restaurant. we almost wait for 45 minutes for our food to come on our table. when i look at their services i feel i am stand alone with them, i feel my service provide at college is not good enough what i think.

i feel they are my shadow of me, my family members always said the bad of them, but i din, cause i know what exactly they feel, because i have same problem also.

i feel i am looking my shadow

degree level one semester one

have just started for my degree level one classes, i could not said i am free or busy, the thing i can said is so far so good.
the bad thing is i just know all the T2 in my previous class they are very hate me since semester 1, i not sure what i have been did, i just know i be the person who i dislike also.
currently i am rushing for father to give me 190 Pound to paid the study fee the dead line is on next Tuesday.

the good things is just one i know how to do my first programming and can earn more for this month
 and i hope i can do more than i think