life started to be boring

as per title, currently i am reading a motivation book, but funny part is i din motivated to read, is not because of book content too bored but is my life is too bored, is huge problem for me. i din know what happen to me and what should i do for the changes to bring back my motivation. feel like wanted to chat with other people, but dunno how to start a conversation or dunno how to continue a conversation. life started to be bored for my this age

think and dream

sitting in front of pc, thinking about this year August can be happen or not?
my mind is full of question mark, white screen and feel the fear from heart
one of the result is release, when the result is full release it will begin something or something never begin

reading all the motivation book is interest thing and motivating me, but if my heart was full with above statement, i will not be motivated :(

a lot of things need to be purchase and din fill with priority yet

dunno what is the number of the day already

an interest day

today work for me be more interesting, and i meet my team lead for developer, she was on leave for training and CNY holiday together. as usual morning i start to read the ebook again and to be more practical, and i already start scad when team lead i need to improve one report, and the nervous start increase very fast, and i have the team briefing, basically i feel i am in the board and i feel i feel if not work hard i will be remove, it feel complicated, when having team briefing, i was so excited because of business intelligence, the was my scope in my fyp, even though they might only lunch end of this year as their target,

lot of things to improve lot of things need to be schedule

a chance

not sure is how many day already, feel blank.
2 days before supervisor assign me a development project, obviously i am excited, but sad part is i am doing alone, and the day after i am transfer to another department in develop but not support. for trail 30 days. if bad performance than will switch back to support team, what i hope is stay until the end of intern this is what i hope for this intern, getting experience in develop software environment. another day to begin for today

my mistake

yesterday i feel i was fool to ask hr why din put me in intern in developer side, as i get the answer is because of i fail developer part during interview, so sad and so bad, what can i do is just continue doing for this work first, because i haven done anything

sometime you need to ask for you right

today intern is still normal, traffic is okay but dunno what will happen on tomorrow,
today i have try some of my task with the help from senior, after i done it, i feel empty and dunno what to do, because the task is not what i request and what he (one of the management from company) said to me. the job future is challenging but it did not help for my study and career,

what i wanted to do for internship is try to help me in FYP for level 3

just hope tomorrow i can tell them or share them what is my opinion

intern day 2

first day of intern

today is my first day intern, nothing special happen in work
but something happen around me, least traffic jam, due to cny mode havent off
first time create account atm card stuck inside machine
lol

work detail not interest, remember a lot of people remind us dun because of first step than you give up, maybe there is a lot of interest thing at the back

and i can plan other things.

please dun give up so easy

CNY 2014

in between 3 days of celebration CNY 2014 a lot of things happen, just like malaysia a lot of things is happening around. and i hope still can remember things in detail

nian 30
as usual as previous working in father restaurant, every year when i work during CNY i feel very stress, stress not because of many people, stress because of customer is decreasing, as i can feel it dropping year by year, before 1pm i can go back home to pack up my clothes for balik kampung,

back to home the most hate things, is little brother is playing online game in front of pc, while everyone is busy for CNY, he is 12 years old already and do not know basic management, as i pack up everything, i got the feeling of bored. and i start wondering why is it happened to me, as i remember usually i will be super excited, am i old? i dun think so. lucky father is back and i can stop thinking about it. and i really feel old that forget few items that should be done during CNY LOL

on the journey back to hometown saw one honda city almost had accident due to miss control, and i dun understand the driver should can drive fast (around 115km/h) just like nothing happen, and start thinking why is it happen? if i was the driver, what i will do that time? as my age grew up that is a change i will drive for this journey

today grandma house got some new guess, which is my uncle who never come back on nian 30, and my cousin almost cannot recognize them, i believe got around 10 years never meet them, and some of them is studying at Taiwan, what i feel is lucky caused i can communicate with them and get some information about travel to taiwan and their status, and i just know they are coming for awhile, will back kl around 9,30pm at that night i can saw everyone is using their smartphone, but lucky we still can chat about our current status, and most of the people said i become thinner which i currently still dun believe it LOL, that night we din gamble, not sure is what reason

chor 1
early morning i wake up as usual and i start touch my phone just like usual and like other people insta and facebook status or picture, and i still cannot cure for this habit, and this is the day i start for my gamble and i din win LOL and i stop playing, and i cannot believe my brother start playing, today is the day super double hot and i have bath for 3 times for this day, at night we went to tanjung emas for our small eat as usual some fish ball, ABC ice, liang shui, after that we went to sea side for walking and take pictures, below is the result

unbelievable, after one year they clean up and it become more beautiful 

front view 

everyone also said, ABC ice become smaller 

......fish ball also ...... (sigh) 

i keep my words for this rojak 

they redo last time when we was kid, what we, but is too heavy 

part of our generation 

act funny face 

ghost face 1

with pretty cousin 

ghost face 2, even is CNY LOL

ｏopps why all move we haven take picture

after small eat 

yup this is the one , we are still young 

after that i went to another grandma house, as i predict i will come back kl early 

at there i feel very tired, and i just went there and sleep, no people is there and not enough people for mahjong 

chor 2, 

after watching one tv program (china speed dating) than one lovely cousin come who always apps and sms me, but funny part is we din talk much like the end of conversation of apps is end for our topic, 

than start mahjong and i still lose LOL at night i went back to father grandma house and went for reunion dinner before heading back to kl, and this time for my first time i wait for dinner for 1 hour and 45 minutes, and 18 people can finish meals for 30 minutes. the reason of waiting so long is because number of chief is 3 people and number of table that haven  have meal is more than 10 tables, and the most sad part is the waiter tell us that they have sotong meal, and end up they dun have stock for sotong and din take our order at list, but keep on telling us have. from this action it reflect his attitude, and i have some thinking about it on me but lucky we still can be patient and take photo 

and during going back kl i am driving and i feel okay, not very stress and everything is okay

the end of CNY story