meet her

today i went back early so i decide go to Mines for awhile because i want searching for my sport shoes for repair. while i am searching i meet her again, but this time i try to not looking to her, but she ran quickly away.
dunno what is the reason. is she still remember that morning sms ? or other?

i not sure about this and dun go and ask her.

now i just hope we still have chance to meet each other and chat

chat with an old friend

just now attending my mother company CNY dinner

i feel very excited to attend it, cause one of my primary school friend was attend to there also. 

we chat at there along the dinner, we talking about college, gathering, our friends, our memory and etc. 

we also talking about the trip actually i never think before a friend will have same idea with me 

i want a trip before i graduate, but he was different, he want the trip after graduate. 

but at least i have the same dream with him, now i feel very happy because i found a partner in my trip. 

i just hope he will remain the same dream and feeling 

maybe after 2 years or next year end of the year i will organize the trip, but i hop e the trip partner is 4 to 6 persons and study in different area. now i have found a accounting i need to find another 4 more peoples 

i hope i can find peoples have interest it and want to join. 

what happen to me

next week Tuesday is another nightmare day again for me 

i dunno how to face it. 

at here i have make a lot of problem. 

like this time i forget to send the mail regarding presentation room. 

i just have update for one presentation room and another i forget to do it.

and affect the team have been scold from supervisor or manager also can be happen when they call me. 

when i review my blog again my post with tag of technical assistant 

almost all of the tag is about the unhappy things 

in my mind i am thinking a things which will affect my feeling i was very sad just now. 

i try to watch drama to avoid think about it, but watching the drama is also talking about the efficiency of work. 

suddenly I think that my attitude like this always forget the things can be handle the job to save a person to get in prison or death, is a very important job.

i hope i still can stay in the team and make some change on myself, but how should i do?

facing problem

this problem is not a big problem, i just dunno how to solve it.
when i facing the girl who is same class with me i talk to them with english i will be talk like hesitant.
but when i talk to TA girl in english is still okay.

sound like funny, but seriously if i dun fixed it,
i will be like feel very shame that study in IT that speak in broken english and poor language

lesson for revise & advise

just now was having of discussion, that remind me again about the give and take.
we all must give somethings to someone without expert the person feedback.

just now i was thinking that is the person join this team means that the person result will be not the best one.
i hope this is not true for it and i will prove for it.

recently does not have mood to update blog in detail with a lot of picture.
but i hope in CNY and the trip will let me upload nicely with words and picture.
i hope i can do it.

partners in my travel

suddenly i remember my plan again just now of the movement
i want to find partners in my college or my life that can spend time to have discuss and discover the IT, business, engineering and doctor areas. of course the most important area is IT.
we will discuss and analysis each other idea and discover what is weakness and strong.
and give opinion.
and we will spend our time for a travel that travel whole west malaysia
from north to south, penang to johor.
by spending least money using bicycle, to look around of malaysia

now my classmate i cant find this type of friend around me, except 1 or 2 peoples
and this 1 or 2 peoples i also not sure are they having same idea to do the same things
i hope before i graduate in degree i can spend my time to do this travel

my new target in year 2012

set up a new target at here and put beside blog remind me every time 

• Get first class or at least second upper for my degree level 1
• Start GCI class during first level  
• Know how to use and set up Linux server (Ubuntu, Fedora)
• Know how to use Windows server 2008 R2
• Try to went overnight with friend  [countdown, celebrate]
• Try to buy tablet  (iPad2, under RM950 )
• A DSLR camera [canon] to snapshot memory with friend ^^
• Try to control my money spend [as much as I cam lor]
• Keep fit [BMI under 26]

YEM week

begin on Tuesday until Friday i was very busy for the YEM year end maintenance.
between this four days have fun and serious things happens,
same goes to sad and happy.

i can said that i have been long time never have my dinner in my house, during this four days i always went out and eat. i can said i became fatter le la

i saw a TA friend blog post, at the last of YEM they go Domino for lunch and mamak for dinner
a lot of things happen at there. the most important things is about the happy things in the team.
yes is true a things a team a person can be in good and bad

this month i can earn more than last months but dunno how was next month
cause got CNY and Feb got a lot of submission of assignment
even though is 3 module, i need to check whether my previous semester is good result or bad
i scad i need to retake again

just this for this post.......

i am sorry

today i discuss with my father again about the TA gathering or trip
and tell him we will go there by bus, since it goes there by ......
but no choice myself also want to go there,
since 6 years already i never go far distance trip and have been one year i never go trip already
even though a small camp (YQ)
today i was very stupid have been lie from supervisor ><'' (sigh)
but is okay for me, i feel recently i becomes blur, cause a lot of things what i have been done, is a blur person

just now i have follow a new blog which is same as me as a TA,
seriously i dun like her can record the things so nice and tidy and attract me to read for it, especially for for the trainee period.

yes, honestly i feel a bit jealous for her that have been select for board member trainee.
but just for that movement, after that i feel i cannot fulfill the task as a board member
i just can becomes a TA maybe i can becomes but i think b=now i cannot becomes cause
i have a lot of task i still cannot release during classroom, a lot of things i still cannot release.

if you are seen this post, dun feel i am ignore you or dislike you,
please change your mind i not that kind of person.
i just wish you good luck for you training period

20-12-2011

today happen a lot of things in college 

dunno want to put what topic at above just write the date on above. 

every things still in my heart hard to say it out 

but the things i still remember is i ask my father allow me to go the TA trip 

but he reject for it, just for the reason we drive ti there 

dunno tomorrow is the supervisor accept my point or not. 

overall is okay, but just right now all the dream and happiness are gone 

a better life @ you are the lucky

just now i  re watch again a drama, is talking about 2 peoples during 1930 somethings in China
talk about how they fight Japanese occupation.
how they survive from there, it talk from they are teenager until they die,
even though drama may be lie, but this may be true and happen before.
the touching part is after the war 30 years, how they meet again in the same places
and how they recall back their memory, the 2 couple finally meet together
i still remember 1 screen talk like this
"if i going to die, who will wait me at heaven"
"depend on the situation, if you go first you will wait for me, but if i go first i will wait for you at there"

i suddenly feel somethings wrong with me, something i forget to do, in the team
but i will think it positively and i will find the way out and do it properly
i will never give up,
this post is write to me to wake up and try your best

today i was very lucky do not scold by supervisor,
actually as i mention before not during duty, he was not very angry at all and is a friendly friend
totally hard to know what is his mind thinking
we go mamak have a dinner
and just went back on late night
hope i can do well in duty

darkness of Tuesday

early in the morning i wake up from the bed, first things in my mind is about the general meeting
(sigh) i can said after continue 2 weeks i have scold by lab chief and supervisor
i no more mood and interest in general meeting
i hope god will help me to avoid getting scold from them already
please la let the Tuesday be a nice day for me

chat

last night, have some chat with her even though is small things only, 

i feel very happy and better 

i hope we still can develop 

just few words for this times 

scad

i am watching a drama, is talking about a local china fighting for his right
even though is his supervisor.

now i am trying to send an duty email i feel very scad already
haiz...... i do not know this will happen on me
if can i hope this is a dream
the dream i can wake up
i need more spirit to prevent the scad

my first probation

today can be my happy day but after 7pm i was feel a bit unhappy i have receive a probation for my life TT

but still okay cause get some friends advice and counseling, so i feel more better right now. 

working is not an easy things.

just this for today 

what wrong is me

i do not know am i wrong or not but as i know i am very disappointed with me now,
i can make 2 mistake in two weeks

i do not know what wrong is me

right now i dun have mood to write this post, i want to write on it because
i want to remind myself to said that what if this happen in my real work

i cannot accept this for mine life
i hope i can do it more better
i am working with a company i must perform well
i am not working with own business,
i am now working with other company

happy and sad; good and bad

yesterday and today got sad and good news
let me talk about the sad news.
i broken down my record, my attendance record and attitude
yesterday have one replacement class for PIT but i have request duty for that particular time and i scad with my supervisor (that movement)

so i did not attend the class... ... i did not feeling somethings wrong with me
this is so bad, i must change it and avoid it happen, i must tell myself
"i as a student, i cannot miss any class any more, this is the first time and last time for me"

good news is i never happy for more than 2days continue
and today i saw a different supervisor without working environment he will become more friendly
if in the working environment
he will be angry most. lazy to type already cause i have a lot of staff need to continue to do even though i just start for my new semester

i am tired

i am very tired very very tired and i feel i cannot continue like this.
yes it is the best way to earn money and get experience but keep on like this working for 8 hours per day
i feel i will becomes crazy. if can i want to enjoy during my duty
i need to change my self changing in a better way.
even though, yesterday i have work for almost 12 hours and i din take my lunch and dinner
if my friend and classmate saw this post they said i am stupid doing this.
i do like this just because i want reduce my financial spending
i always use my parent's money for my personal using, i feel very shame on it
so big le still need do like this.
just hope this kind of situation will changes

1129

today can i said this is a bad day and news to me.

i have been work for 3months, and this is my first time to get scold from my supervisor 

today, after the general meeting,i have meet with supervisor with some of my TA teams 

there is somethings is not in the place but at the other. At the next movement it will loss from college. 

it cost my one semester fee. 

i have been scold that i was very blur person, am i ?

since begin of this college i have perceive that i was very unhappy at all the time, even though i am smiling that is not last longer. today maybe is my last day i have becomes the TA i might be reject from the team or i maybe fired from the supervisor. 

1129 is a nightmare for me, i cant help my parent and i could not do my staff my self with my own