gathering

i though it was happy to have current gathering, but when it come to last day of the things, lot of things can be happen, more than 2 people suddenly said cannot come, i just hope i still can manage the gathering flow when it begins. everyone said was sure coming for coming gathering, but i am scare the god is playing with me, lot of emergency things happen with them.

2 more hours, more than 4 people said not coming i feel i am fail again
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just back from gathering, ya, very relax for me, they still continue the gathering, i have left nothing just because start bored and i start to think something else, something bad not good one,

the gathering was success primary because someone is attend for it, and some of them last minutes have something to do, but at the end they have made it, and one of them is school star (i think so),
overall we just bull shit and talk shit every things about life experience, mine one is the normal one with work and study experience, special things is in IT, if majority is coming, then my talk will be argue by others, bill is ok for me, they asking for bigger plan for gathering, and i also think there is good as well, but i am thinking when should i do it?

suddenly i feel i am selfish that because someone is asking me to create gathering, and i am not free after CNY that why i create it before CNY, feel unfair for someone, but before event start i feel there is life, after the event now, i feel what have i done

the feeling of gathering is gone, i feel i need to back on track with my study now, before that just show some photo

regarding about future gathering? i dun think too much and just continue see what happen