I was here 2 years ago, 1 month + I will be leaving here. Full of memory with happiness and sadness. Leaving this word is in my mind since 10 month ago, I always tell myself I can stay longer with them, but unfortunately I couldn't, I cannot lie to myself. I am stress when I working here, and I was very busy with my assignments and some part of my life. I know is an excuse to said and to do this. But when I submitted the letter, my heart was very confused. There is a girl I like the most in this team. When I saw her I din saw the shadow of previous, I was thinking can continue in this team because of her? So sad, I couldn't do that. A new batch of trainees is coming in, but I could not spwnd some time with them. Sound very sarcasm, but is true I couldn't spend any more time. Typing this post for more than 2 weeks. It look like my memory are getting least and least. Sad memory is occupied the space, happy memory was passing through my life and run away
2013年6月6日星期四
2013年5月11日星期六
《致我们终将逝去的青春》
原本说好原本下午12点开始做自己的课业，却被这部电影的主题给吸引住了。
看完这部电影，我突然有冲动的感觉说，我自己的生活是怎样的？
就说故事里头的精彩片头。
女主角郑微从一个不懂事的女大学生变成世界再也不陌生的女强人；
从过去的稚气变成…………我无法用字来形容自己的这部电影的感觉。
男主角陈孝正在感情与利益，却选择自己的利益。连自己的婚姻也是为了自己的利益。自己的爱情也只有在大学里和女主角郑微。多年以后自己找回郑微不求她挽回对自己的爱情自求重新和他开始，因为人生当中只有郑微改变过自己的爱情观。
从那一刻开始成熟的萌芽开始，冷酷的一面也慢慢地开幕起来。
大学里郑微，那长发的青春，却换成再换成职场上的短发的冷酷。看着自己的室友一个一个忘记子的梦想，忘记自己的青春。
黎维娟看透了世界选择年龄50岁的男人作为自己的丈夫。
阮莞为了自己固执的爱情而失去自己的性命
傻傻稚气的朱小北变成成功学的小云，遇到自己的老友也得装不认识。
电影片头就好像是《那些年》但过了大学毕业所有的事情都不一样。
看完影片，我就想到自己现在的生活到底是怎样？
我和大家一样经历过小学，中学，生活营以及现在的大学，甚至还在学院里打了工
我还和以往的朋友联络吗？我感觉自己的生活像一片空白。
我认为大家都没有错，错都是在于我不懂得分配，很多东西我都不能分配。
到现在的我已经觉得说我的情绪已影响我的工作能力，我已有觉悟说70%肯定的说我要离开。
看到这部电影，我很想重新规划自己的生活。
看完这部电影，我突然有冲动的感觉说，我自己的生活是怎样的？
就说故事里头的精彩片头。
女主角郑微从一个不懂事的女大学生变成世界再也不陌生的女强人；
从过去的稚气变成…………我无法用字来形容自己的这部电影的感觉。
男主角陈孝正在感情与利益，却选择自己的利益。连自己的婚姻也是为了自己的利益。自己的爱情也只有在大学里和女主角郑微。多年以后自己找回郑微不求她挽回对自己的爱情自求重新和他开始，因为人生当中只有郑微改变过自己的爱情观。
从那一刻开始成熟的萌芽开始，冷酷的一面也慢慢地开幕起来。
大学里郑微，那长发的青春，却换成再换成职场上的短发的冷酷。看着自己的室友一个一个忘记子的梦想，忘记自己的青春。
黎维娟看透了世界选择年龄50岁的男人作为自己的丈夫。
阮莞为了自己固执的爱情而失去自己的性命
傻傻稚气的朱小北变成成功学的小云，遇到自己的老友也得装不认识。
电影片头就好像是《那些年》但过了大学毕业所有的事情都不一样。
看完影片，我就想到自己现在的生活到底是怎样？
我和大家一样经历过小学，中学，生活营以及现在的大学，甚至还在学院里打了工
我还和以往的朋友联络吗？我感觉自己的生活像一片空白。
我认为大家都没有错，错都是在于我不懂得分配，很多东西我都不能分配。
到现在的我已经觉得说我的情绪已影响我的工作能力，我已有觉悟说70%肯定的说我要离开。
看到这部电影，我很想重新规划自己的生活。
2013年5月2日星期四
fail to do it
this post i already prepare since 18 April, and i did not write anything until today 2 May.
currently, i feel i am tired, i ask myself, did i do my thing? did i perform my task?
i am tired of that, currently is 22 days after that, i feel is time for me to go.
currently, i feel i am tired, i ask myself, did i do my thing? did i perform my task?
i am tired of that, currently is 22 days after that, i feel is time for me to go.
2013年4月7日星期日
second trip with TA - paintball
just finish another trip with TA just now or we can said from yesterday 3pm until today 1.30am
from Wednesday until yesterday, i was been wake up by alarm. currently feel is okay already if previously, if i wake up this situation i will be headache.
Yesterday was wake up early for special task in Mines@FBM. Some accident happen over there for the task, i believe is my over stress caused the problem. i cant stop myself to be overstress, exercise i also done already. dunno what can i do.
at 3pm we gather at university and we start to move to the paintball.after having briefing and we start to play. when i notice someone come in my team. because is my first time and i will definitely fail for the game.
but i dunno why for my first game i feel i can do better and the continue game i was playing well.
that time i was feel i am over crazy already or over fun, but i still discipline during the war of game.
i was totally feel good and success for it. and my stupid supervisor said how good is the iphone and how good it is compare with android, but he cannot take a good picture from iphone, below is the picture.
from Wednesday until yesterday, i was been wake up by alarm. currently feel is okay already if previously, if i wake up this situation i will be headache.
Yesterday was wake up early for special task in Mines@FBM. Some accident happen over there for the task, i believe is my over stress caused the problem. i cant stop myself to be overstress, exercise i also done already. dunno what can i do.
at 3pm we gather at university and we start to move to the paintball.after having briefing and we start to play. when i notice someone come in my team. because is my first time and i will definitely fail for the game.
but i dunno why for my first game i feel i can do better and the continue game i was playing well.
that time i was feel i am over crazy already or over fun, but i still discipline during the war of game.
i was totally feel good and success for it. and my stupid supervisor said how good is the iphone and how good it is compare with android, but he cannot take a good picture from iphone, below is the picture.
after paintball we having dinner together and watch movie again. GIJOE is the movie we watch, nothing special happen over there. but i was telling myself after overall. how many out going i still can having with them?
i also dun have the aswer, because i know i well be resign soon from the team for future purpose.
after resign i know for sure we will least contact each other
photo from the xtion paintball:
if someone can saw the above picture you can find out there are few traitors
2013年3月22日星期五
a review night
is another night i could not sleep, if my mom know about it, she will said not enough exercise, but i think this night is because of food and problem with myself.
on yesterday (Wednesday) i was solve some of the problem with me with my working team leader. during solving i was very emotion, after discussion, i was like a almost explore balloon become a normal balloon.
almost forget what is my purpose to came in, and forget what is the purpose i still over at here.
working environment really difficult place, for me i dun have any words to describe it, it was very simple "work" but i could not take it so easy, because it might affect my normal life,
through working i know more friend and different kind of the friend;
through working i getting more knowledge and experience of the real world;
through working i find a different life style i can have.
lot of the things can be affect.
through the emotion i told myself i will resign soon on June or July, or i still maintain the same plan October
and start searching my internship.
and i might miss my first colleague in my life
miss them as colleague and miss them as friend
on yesterday (Wednesday) i was solve some of the problem with me with my working team leader. during solving i was very emotion, after discussion, i was like a almost explore balloon become a normal balloon.
almost forget what is my purpose to came in, and forget what is the purpose i still over at here.
working environment really difficult place, for me i dun have any words to describe it, it was very simple "work" but i could not take it so easy, because it might affect my normal life,
through working i know more friend and different kind of the friend;
through working i getting more knowledge and experience of the real world;
through working i find a different life style i can have.
lot of the things can be affect.
through the emotion i told myself i will resign soon on June or July, or i still maintain the same plan October
and start searching my internship.
and i might miss my first colleague in my life
miss them as colleague and miss them as friend
2013年3月16日星期六
new level
semester break no more 2 months is only 1.5 months between level 1 and level 2.
as usual i will said the time is passing to fast, or i can said i dun manage myself properly.
TA life style is not a easy life style.
busy with work, even working in part time, but i feel i working in full time,
follow up the pending task and problem.
am i thinking over ? i dunno. what i know i need to concentrate on year 2
on semester break i try to set some target,
just 1 target have fulfil
start doing exercise, which should done last year March and i delay it for 9 months
such a good delay............
i want to have some revision for my programming courses, unlucky, change new house, only at new house has internet access. and is further than university, what can i do ?
just continue only,
new semester start on next week,
i not sure i still can stay how long in the team, as i know i feel unbalance and upset, the time almost reach already
as usual i will said the time is passing to fast, or i can said i dun manage myself properly.
TA life style is not a easy life style.
busy with work, even working in part time, but i feel i working in full time,
follow up the pending task and problem.
am i thinking over ? i dunno. what i know i need to concentrate on year 2
on semester break i try to set some target,
just 1 target have fulfil
start doing exercise, which should done last year March and i delay it for 9 months
such a good delay............
i want to have some revision for my programming courses, unlucky, change new house, only at new house has internet access. and is further than university, what can i do ?
just continue only,
new semester start on next week,
i not sure i still can stay how long in the team, as i know i feel unbalance and upset, the time almost reach already
2013年3月11日星期一
2013年3月3日星期日
first time hang out over night
yesterday was the firrst time i hang out with friends, i was feel a bit excited to go, because first time went out and back late. someone will asking how about previous? why i din went out over night? the reason is very simple safety. my neighbour was having experience with thief after watching movie night show.
we have decide to meet at university around 6:30 but i went there around 3pm, due to boring and try to see who is over there. and i find out that there is only one person doing special task i was shock, there shouldn`t have only one person doing special task over there. and she was the person who also going to the gathering for movie and dinner, after i help her for awhile and i send her back to vista accommodation. around 6pm most of us reach there already, and get some bad news some of them could not attend for last minutes telling.
after that we went to a special shop for our dinner around pj, the address is:
LG006 & LG007,
Millennium Square, Dataran Millennium PJ,
98, Jalan 14/1, 46100 Petaling Jaya.LG006 & LG007, Millennium Square Jalan 14/1
46200 Petaling Jaya, Malaysia
the food is not bad, but just the water is too expensive for me, overall expression is still okay
here is the only one photo we have for yesterday,
after that we go to Midvalley to watch our movie Jack and the giant slaver
movie was very awesome, with good storyline, and the style they use as usual as a america movie.
the funny part of the movie is our university advertising video was come out during the movie trial. we all like blur over there. and i not sure who was the person said need to do QC check which is a part of our job scope, all of us laughing at the person.
after movie i bring another 4 persons went back home, which make me went back home very late around 1am i reach home, and i hope my family members was sleep already, actually is not, my father was wake up due to i am back home, i was shock because after that 3:30am he need to wake up already, feel sorry to him
at the end, yesterday was very nice day for me, and i hope next gathering or hang out with more people.
we have decide to meet at university around 6:30 but i went there around 3pm, due to boring and try to see who is over there. and i find out that there is only one person doing special task i was shock, there shouldn`t have only one person doing special task over there. and she was the person who also going to the gathering for movie and dinner, after i help her for awhile and i send her back to vista accommodation. around 6pm most of us reach there already, and get some bad news some of them could not attend for last minutes telling.
after that we went to a special shop for our dinner around pj, the address is:
LG006 & LG007,
Millennium Square, Dataran Millennium PJ,
98, Jalan 14/1, 46100 Petaling Jaya.LG006 & LG007, Millennium Square Jalan 14/1
46200 Petaling Jaya, Malaysia
here is the only one photo we have for yesterday,
after that we go to Midvalley to watch our movie Jack and the giant slaver
movie was very awesome, with good storyline, and the style they use as usual as a america movie.
the funny part of the movie is our university advertising video was come out during the movie trial. we all like blur over there. and i not sure who was the person said need to do QC check which is a part of our job scope, all of us laughing at the person.
after movie i bring another 4 persons went back home, which make me went back home very late around 1am i reach home, and i hope my family members was sleep already, actually is not, my father was wake up due to i am back home, i was shock because after that 3:30am he need to wake up already, feel sorry to him
at the end, yesterday was very nice day for me, and i hope next gathering or hang out with more people.
2013年2月12日星期二
my CNY 2013
this year CNY is more boring than previous or i can said is the worst i meet in my life.
28 night i prepared to go back parent home town. and on chu 2 i already coming back to kl
3 days i stay at my home town only, the cousin i miss the most only meet on chu 2 night and i prepare to come back haiz............
i hope they can come to kl and visit kl town with me.
the special of this year CNY is the photo that i edit, actually i already plan long time ago, but the result is a bit not good due to the position of people is not correct
this week thursday is valentine day and i request duty on that day, lucky for this time i can cancel the duty and date with a girl, hope it success
28 night i prepared to go back parent home town. and on chu 2 i already coming back to kl
3 days i stay at my home town only, the cousin i miss the most only meet on chu 2 night and i prepare to come back haiz............
i hope they can come to kl and visit kl town with me.
the special of this year CNY is the photo that i edit, actually i already plan long time ago, but the result is a bit not good due to the position of people is not correct
between 15 years, i wondering what will happen after 15 years from now
i saw a lot of fb message saying that they will meet friend on chu 3 but unfortunately until now i haven celebrate any CNY with my friend
CNY is celebrate between family and friend but until now i haven celebrate with friend,
and i hope next year target i can do this try to gather my primary school friend or secondary school friends.
today chu 3 i din go any other place other than staying at home
2014 chu 3 i am waiting to gather with my friends
this week thursday is valentine day and i request duty on that day, lucky for this time i can cancel the duty and date with a girl, hope it success
miss a friend
a friend on last week is leaving me on Tuesday, and i though we still have 9 more months to go. as the girl tell me that she though 3 of us will last until end of this year. and i am thinking i will break her records because i am thinking i am the one who will be the first to be leave, but eventually is you,
i know you want to do this since long time ago, i notice this since last year October. you said we fulfil one year already, lets go we leave the team.
at that time i am thinking what have i contribute to the team? and my answer is no and some how i need income source so i decline your invite.
2nd feb you having open day at your house, unfortunately i need to attend my mom company annual dinner and meet a primary school friend and i post the facebook so unlucky.
in future i hope we still have chance to for gathering even though our home town is very far.
i still remember the first impression you give me, rich people and look down people. rich people can go trip without financial problem, due to that i think you always look down people.
currently i feel the way i think is not mature. after getting know well about you, i feel i am the one who look down other people when i start busy.
IAI assignment is our first assignment do together, and it was very successful, just the looping i do have some bug. our friend said it was impossible either 2 of us working together. but i think we have prove it we can do it.
i am typing this post for more than 3 weeks, i hope i din miss and forget anything between 2 of us but i already forget it
haiz.....................
i know you want to do this since long time ago, i notice this since last year October. you said we fulfil one year already, lets go we leave the team.
at that time i am thinking what have i contribute to the team? and my answer is no and some how i need income source so i decline your invite.
2nd feb you having open day at your house, unfortunately i need to attend my mom company annual dinner and meet a primary school friend and i post the facebook so unlucky.
in future i hope we still have chance to for gathering even though our home town is very far.
i still remember the first impression you give me, rich people and look down people. rich people can go trip without financial problem, due to that i think you always look down people.
currently i feel the way i think is not mature. after getting know well about you, i feel i am the one who look down other people when i start busy.
IAI assignment is our first assignment do together, and it was very successful, just the looping i do have some bug. our friend said it was impossible either 2 of us working together. but i think we have prove it we can do it.
i am typing this post for more than 3 weeks, i hope i din miss and forget anything between 2 of us but i already forget it
haiz.....................
2012年12月4日星期二
first time watch movie with the geng
on last Saturday (1/12/2012) is the first day of the December and we can countdown for 20 days for end of the world. i have my friend's birthday on that day, and at the same day i went out with them
2012年11月23日星期五
nuclear boom version X
i am not sure i have write how many time for my boom or nuclear version post
and is a long time i did not write my blog post, is time i write this post to renew it,
and this post make my life upside down.
today got corporate training installation and the nuclear boom start that time,
i could not do the network ghosting due to the lacking of knowledge and did chase the knowledge from the person
and when i check the mouse location and i get lose of it, because i fail to find it and there is something happen with me and the staff
and the staff happen with my friend
and i never forget about it
and is a long time i did not write my blog post, is time i write this post to renew it,
and this post make my life upside down.
today got corporate training installation and the nuclear boom start that time,
i could not do the network ghosting due to the lacking of knowledge and did chase the knowledge from the person
and when i check the mouse location and i get lose of it, because i fail to find it and there is something happen with me and the staff
and the staff happen with my friend
and i never forget about it
2012年11月19日星期一
special for you
since last post is long time ago, and most of my post change to twitter, but this post must be at here.
today i read a short novel in newspaper, i decide to write this at here before i forget it.
2587 ++ message when i look back our facebook conversation. i still remember the first conversation we have is related with your driving timetable
today i read a short novel in newspaper, i decide to write this at here before i forget it.
2587 ++ message when i look back our facebook conversation. i still remember the first conversation we have is related with your driving timetable
2012年11月15日星期四
movie that i watch at home in this sem break
no time description, but overall all these movies are very nice
2012年11月3日星期六
a post for a moth update
i not sure i can type this finish or not, because i least update in blog, most of my update are too little and easy to get forget. So i decide update at twitter.
and i will do a summary for this post for my October situation.
Trainee period just finish, and my stress haven release, the tension still stay around with me.
and i believe a lot of people will said i am super hansap. and i hope this will change in future November
still cannot change i still very stress up when doing task, always multiple time to get things
few friend are leaving in the team and i will miss them a lot especially the twins, the twins is the cute girl i never meet before. i should remember what is my comment on them, every things is the same other than one is wear spec another is not, still remember the trainee briefing they can go early, but i cant feel jealous of that.
almost every day i stay back for the team and cannot fulfill my assignment and homework, hopefully i can finish my duty quota for lab and i can concentrate.
the war of "in between" is not just happen during my work is also happen during between my friends
and i have a lot of lesson in October month
and i will do a summary for this post for my October situation.
Trainee period just finish, and my stress haven release, the tension still stay around with me.
and i believe a lot of people will said i am super hansap. and i hope this will change in future November
still cannot change i still very stress up when doing task, always multiple time to get things
few friend are leaving in the team and i will miss them a lot especially the twins, the twins is the cute girl i never meet before. i should remember what is my comment on them, every things is the same other than one is wear spec another is not, still remember the trainee briefing they can go early, but i cant feel jealous of that.
almost every day i stay back for the team and cannot fulfill my assignment and homework, hopefully i can finish my duty quota for lab and i can concentrate.
the war of "in between" is not just happen during my work is also happen during between my friends
and i have a lot of lesson in October month
2012年10月23日星期二
a lot of things happen
currently, a lot of things happen on me, i cannot update at here, everything happen is a small case, but when you collect it, it will become a big problem for me. and i could not always update at here. the place i current always update is on twitter, and most of them shows that i am emo
this is the things i can said
this is the things i can said
2012年10月7日星期日
how many i can do and how can i do
This post should be post by last week, regarding comment to a trainee, but fail to do so, and with same title and post with this, i cant believe when i review my blog post last months i just post 3 post, it means i am too busy or too tired or stress
this is for my first post on Oct, last week i have set timetable for me, but fail to apply due to too general and something happen
Thursday is a nightmare for me
Friday is a suffering for me
Saturday is bluring for me
Today is a okay okay for me
i hope tomorrow is okay fine for me
haiz.......
2012年9月23日星期日
In between
last week Saturday actually i have a post, but no more mood no more feeling regarding the post, and i delete it. let me recall my memory, since when i stop playing tetris ? i think it has been a month i never play, this month i always busy with the TA things, currently there is new recruitment drive, and i feel i need teach them something during duty, and i dunno why am i so motivated to teach them, and now i feel dun want to teach them any more,
i am back to origin when i become TA from trainee, blur. and i still remember last Tuesday to Thursday got heavy deployment from Mines to Ent3 and from main building to Incubator II this things was happen in between 2 days, it sound like we are plan well, eventually we are doing last minutes, on the next day, we receive info that we need to collect back ...... !!!!!!
i cant believe, we need to do that, and i was blur why they do that, after i know from staff there was VIP and important visitor will come to visit and we need to prepare the machines in those places. To allow them take picture.......... i was noting to said.
and another event happen, in lab there was another emergency for Corporate Training, Saturday should have class for more than 20 machines are required, but it request last minutes again, and yesterday what i saw in lab there was no class.
this week totally like hell for me, and i in between the two person war this is what i can express
i am back to origin when i become TA from trainee, blur. and i still remember last Tuesday to Thursday got heavy deployment from Mines to Ent3 and from main building to Incubator II this things was happen in between 2 days, it sound like we are plan well, eventually we are doing last minutes, on the next day, we receive info that we need to collect back ...... !!!!!!
i cant believe, we need to do that, and i was blur why they do that, after i know from staff there was VIP and important visitor will come to visit and we need to prepare the machines in those places. To allow them take picture.......... i was noting to said.
and another event happen, in lab there was another emergency for Corporate Training, Saturday should have class for more than 20 machines are required, but it request last minutes again, and yesterday what i saw in lab there was no class.
this week totally like hell for me, and i in between the two person war this is what i can express
2012年9月8日星期六
my feeling
i check back my blog, the last post of my blog is on last Saturday one week before.
that time i still remember i become a head and having panic time in uni (task cannot finish),
and this week is the of trainee coming into the team.
how was my feel for the trainee period? in the previous trainee period, i was always looking at female
same goes to this time, but with different feeling, the feeling that i receive info from parent about our family background.
this week like very very very busy and stress, last week Sunday prepare the lab, currently the lab is having problem. need to be standby mode for repair the lab, it was so stress for me.
" we must work smart but not work hard "
i still remember this sentence come out from my supervisor, i believe my work is fulfill his requirement,
and same goes to yesterday
2012年9月1日星期六
tension
on Monday, receive a boom news, i become a head of a department. become a assistant i was very panic now becomes another department head, totally i dun have any other idea. At that movement, i still dunno that today will be the tension day. as happen on Thursday morning, receive info from my assistant i need to prepare an image for today and i did the mistake until now
first mistake: using Windows server 2008 R2 standard
second mistake: download window server SP1 and install in standard format
third mistake: doing something wrong in material
forth mistake: know the standard server unable to use in native boot
fifth mistake: find a crash hard disk for creating image
sixth mistake: ...... i dun want to write it again
the current problem i am facing also is my finance problem. according my records, my expenses is getting more and more in following months. and i getting more4 money also from parents but not from my salary. in the same time i need to i need to solve my education fee, my loan haven come out yet from government.
some more i get a confirm information from my mom,
my dad had diabetes and it was a hereditary from my grandpa,
and now i know already why my father legs is get wound and currently i find out there are a lot of medicine on his table.
now i know the time is passing so fast
tension tension tension
first mistake: using Windows server 2008 R2 standard
second mistake: download window server SP1 and install in standard format
third mistake: doing something wrong in material
forth mistake: know the standard server unable to use in native boot
fifth mistake: find a crash hard disk for creating image
sixth mistake: ...... i dun want to write it again
the current problem i am facing also is my finance problem. according my records, my expenses is getting more and more in following months. and i getting more4 money also from parents but not from my salary. in the same time i need to i need to solve my education fee, my loan haven come out yet from government.
some more i get a confirm information from my mom,
my dad had diabetes and it was a hereditary from my grandpa,
and now i know already why my father legs is get wound and currently i find out there are a lot of medicine on his table.
now i know the time is passing so fast
tension tension tension
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