In between

last week Saturday actually i have a post, but no more mood no more feeling regarding the post, and i delete it. let me recall my memory, since when i stop playing tetris ? i think it has been a month i never play, this month i always busy with the TA things, currently there is new recruitment drive, and i feel i need teach them something during duty, and i dunno why am i so motivated to teach them, and now i feel dun want to teach them any more,

i am back to origin when i become TA from trainee, blur. and i still remember last Tuesday to Thursday got heavy deployment from Mines to Ent3 and from main building to Incubator II this things was happen in between 2 days, it sound like we are plan well, eventually we are doing last minutes, on the next day, we receive info that we need to collect back ...... !!!!!!

i cant believe, we need to do that, and i was blur why they do that, after i know from staff there was VIP and important visitor will come to visit and we need to prepare the machines in those places. To allow them take picture.......... i was noting to said.

and another event happen, in lab there was another emergency for Corporate Training, Saturday should have   class for more than 20 machines are required, but it request last minutes again, and yesterday what i saw in lab there was no class.

this week totally like hell for me, and i in between the two person war this is what i can express

my feeling

i check back my blog, the last post of my blog is on last Saturday one week before. 

that time i still remember i become a head and having panic time in uni (task cannot finish), 

and this week is the of trainee coming into the team. 

how was my feel for the trainee period? in the previous trainee period, i was always looking at female 

same goes to this time, but with different feeling, the feeling that i receive info from parent about our family background. 

this week like very very very busy and stress, last week Sunday prepare the lab, currently the lab is having problem. need to be standby mode for repair the lab, it was so stress for me. 

" we must work smart but not work hard "

i still remember this sentence come out from my supervisor, i believe my work is fulfill his requirement, 

and same goes to yesterday

tension

on Monday, receive a boom news, i become a head of a department. become a assistant i was very panic now becomes another department head, totally i dun have any other idea. At that movement, i still dunno that today will be the tension day. as happen on Thursday morning, receive info from my assistant i need to prepare an image for today and i did the mistake until now

first mistake: using Windows server 2008 R2 standard
second mistake: download window server SP1 and install in standard format
third mistake: doing something wrong in material
forth mistake: know the standard server unable to use in native boot
fifth mistake: find a crash hard disk for creating image
sixth mistake: ...... i dun want to write it again

the current problem i am facing also is my finance problem. according my records, my expenses is getting more and more in following months. and i getting more4 money also from parents but not from my salary. in the same time i need to i need to solve my education fee, my loan haven come out yet from government.

some more i get a confirm information from my mom,
my dad had diabetes and it was a hereditary from my grandpa,
and now i know already why my father legs is get wound and currently i find out there are a lot of  medicine on his table.

now i know the time is passing so fast

tension tension tension

《放学后的初恋》

这本故事原本在星期二就已读完只是没时间来这里上载自己的分享。还好的是我害己的李缅的故事内容。

这故事说着一个女孩在这几的补习中心认识一位男同学，对他有好感，但是没有好好的发展，因为一些误解一些错误让他们不能成为情侣，但却让他们在爱情路上成长。

看到最后我很想问自己，我和她是能够谈一次恋爱还是我们的关系只能够让我们成长？

虽然这薄片帖子是很短，但这个故事的却放映了我现在的状况是如何。

《我们之间的零距离》《童话之城》《奇幻马戏团》

昨天终于看完了3本红蜻蜓小说。说真的这一尺的故事很强、很好、很棒。
不像以前那么死板板。在这里我就分享什么地方吸引我

《我们之间的零距离》

16岁与40岁有多大的距离？答案是24。这是任何人都够回答的简单数学题。
但如果一个40岁的大人失去了26年的记忆，会到从前的16岁又是怎样？
这里的故事是说一位严格的父亲对自己女儿要求很高。
突然一夜间这位父亲失去了26年的记忆，起身时不纪律，身上的衣服有不整齐。
他的女儿可吓坏了，一位严格的父亲竟变成这样。
后来他的女儿和邻居阿姨都发现以前的父亲和自己很相像，以前常常认为自己是不是父亲的亲生女儿。
17岁那年，父亲是受了什么刺激而变成26年的他。

小说里透的父亲工作是电脑软件工程师，这就应起我的兴趣，很想知道一位小说家是如何看待电脑软件工程师的解说，可以看得出，作者形容得不错，说电脑软件工程师很有责任（只有小部分）很有兴趣的是，我很想知道为什么这问父亲是怎样从“调浪荡”变成责任的人。
原来是因为失去初恋，可怕的是自己的好友抢走自己的初恋。从那以后这位父亲就把自己的学业，生意和家庭放在第一，至于朋友，他永远都不会再相信直到这一次的失忆。才发现自己的错误。

最感人的一部分就是，这位父亲回去自己的家乡建自己的初恋的人在一间茶餐室。用不同的方式回味自己的过去。感觉还蛮不错。

这个故事说到一个小女孩（童话）通过爷爷的童话故事的启发寻找着故事里的真实，查着查着不知不觉发现故事里透和现在的村子一模一样，通话也开始发现爷爷和自己并不是亲爷孙的关系，也发现故事里的巫婆事说着自己的母亲自己的身世。其实我看到接近结尾的是我已经准备看电影了（Step Up Revolution) 所以大部分在这个小说的感觉已不见，但我还记得的是

从亲生爷爷变去不是亲生爷爷在后来发现原来他本来就是自己亲生爷爷的感觉，

我觉得这是让故事里的主角最难受的地方。也从故事里面看到爷爷的用心，以及爷爷的约定，对自己的孩子对自己的孙女在对自己的媳妇。

觉得故事里的爷爷真的很伟大

这个故事我觉得好像有点像Alice and the wonderland 的感觉，跌倒然后到另外一个奇妙的世界。但不同的是这个故事有联系到动物的生命以及人类的残忍。


我的感觉渐渐的消失着，我也只能够回味到这么多，还没够买的朋友请记得购买

Step up Revolution

just come back from cinema, and again i watch movie alone, but is okay for me, talk about this movie, it was very awesome like previous, no, i should said is better than previous, if i not mistake they have perform 6 shot dance but 1 of it was the worse case scenario, i was thinking there are some familiar face i have inside the firm, and i not mistake the boy appear again even though he just show up awhile i still miss him and i still recognize him, the person who appear since set up 2, 3 and even now 4.

he had a good performance in this movie.

great great great great this what i can said for this movie

book fair

today, i went to book fair again, why am i said again ? because i still have a lot of books in pending status that i haven read yet XD

and i still want to go book fair and i dunno why. regarding this book fair i feel i am spending a lot on transport, if i am not mistake i spend around rm15 eventually if i spend on public transport i believe i can just spend below rm10

after i reach i go to purchase my accessories, i am lacking some of it, after that i go to book area to purchase  some of the books, and after finish purchase, and i try to contact my sis, i though she also come in to the book fair, but is not she just wanted to come in book fair =='' so i choose to follow them since i have purchase the accessories and books that i need, when i do that, my sis feel i am very annoy or something else  because i always follow them and not thing to do like that, and she ask me why dun contact She?

i just feel the time is just stop for awhile, and i just answer because i shy and i dunno want to talk about what. After that i try to sms to She but fail to get reply from her, after around 1 hour, i dunno how came i so brave try to contact with She and ask somethings else, but i fail again, and i think am i so annoy like how my sis look at me? and i though i still can meet her like how lucky am i in last year, but and again i try to go around and i cannot fine She, and i went back on 3pm. 

after i went back, i saw She online Facebook that is wired, because normally she did not online, and i try to send message to She, but i think i fail to get reply and She will get offline, but she reply me and she just said she also back on 3pm 

i feel me and she does not have the fate and luck to meet each other, i dunno we will be the couple or not, or we can just become a friend pass through our life only, like some of the short passage in newspaper or novel. i hope at least last chance to me. 

《阵头》

我不知道说自己什么，原本说好考完试以后要做很多东西，就因为网络太厉害了，而我又无法控制自己的欲望，常常找着自己以前很想看的电影又没去看又没去购买光碟。结果自己还跑去wiki找有什么电影我是没更新，找找这位演员郭去的电影记录。

一看就看了4部电影（估计），而我也无法控制自己观看电影，很难想象，星期三我又在区看电影了

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接下来电影介绍时间又到了，《阵头》这部电影超级难找，有尝试在网上找过，但之前找到的是20年代的电影而且是恐怖电影。

这部电影时说道台湾文化三太子或阵头十一个传统的文化。故事说到一个年轻人带领着几个家庭被应有问题的孩子和一位成长有问题的孩子。我原以为我可以从这部电影看到三太子舞，但可惜我只听到很多鼓声，但这也不错，我很喜欢鼓声的节奏。
电影里面我只看到充满勇气和蛮力的少年。在这部电影我也看到一个启示
“有勇气改变东西，就有不同的效果，但没有用其和恒心是不可能玩成”

today 15082012

today is Wednesday is my last day of exam for degree level 1 semester 1
how was  it?

the last day of the exam means today is a upsite down
the things i do revision just come out for 10 marks and the other i just based on my feeling

and i come out after 45 mins, it sound stupid and radiculous.

after the exam i straight away spend money not for joke and fun but for the other purpose

today i went to 3 shoping mall == i know it sound like what am i doing for 3 shopping mall ?

SCP, Mines and Jusco selatan

actually i go to SCP for my exam and Mines for buying a tie and Jusco Selatatn for watching movie ,

for this holiday i would like to used to watch 2 movies and go for book fair with friends.

the movie i watch is "Total Recall"

i can said it was very good and awesome. especially choosing the girl starring
the two main female actor which is Kate Beckinsale and Jessica Biel
i dunno why the other commenter and the other viewer said that this movie is too bored
for me, i love this movie, may be the reason is this movie has been taken 10 years before they feel this movie is no more attractive for them, every single step and change of the movie they know well
Jessica is the first time i saw her in movie, she did it very well,
and Kate i not need to said about it, she just like the main actor in the movie.

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today i call her again like last month, but this time is shorter than last month and i feel she very bored and tired to talk with me, is it because of me calling or is because of study. i am blur right now

when can i change

haiz.................

when can i change, the exam period is nearly end, and i still not yet prepare, 

still have a lot of plan in pending mode 

i want let the mode be off and start to do my work and plan 

please please please be wake up 

《醉后一夜》

我选了两张海报，不知道哪一张好看。网络无所不在，很容易就能够得到资讯用不当就会自食其果。如果我在这样下去我知道自己会完蛋呆不下去。

好了不说着伤感情事情。就说这部电影吧！这部电影的预告我管看过了，只所以我这么先看这部电影原因是他的故事情节太吸引我了。

早上醒来发现自己全裸的在床上和不认识的异性在一起，又发现他们不是在酒店床上然而是在展览厅的摆设床。这可够扯。我太欣赏这部电影。

完全没有任何回忆，就在这24个小时他们陆陆续续的知道和发现这一整晚他们都在哪里。

故事的缺点是，我知道他们去过什么地方，但我不知道次序如何，是从哪里再到那里。

不过导演或电影没有出现也对这才符合他们主题《醉后一夜》 / 《片了断》

bad life style

in the past one week, i have a bad life style, sleep late and wake up early after having breakfast 1.5 hours go back sleep again, on evening i have a package of while coffee from restaurant, on night watch drama or movie mostly or somethings i will do revision note for awhile and sometime.

and now i want to said that i have watch
1 Taiwan drama
9 China movies
8 Taiwan movies
4 Hon Kong movies
and 4 English Movie

i am like announce somethings not relevant but something, and 2 more days is my exam start total got 5 module and i just study for 3module and 3 modules is not really okay also



OMG！！！！！！！！！what am i doing !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



haiz.......................................

quality and efficiency

today go to university, just because of the meeting.
today meeting is mention about the efficiency of the member in the team.
i can observe that our team quality is not good as previous, example is me, i do not know anything, even i am  a department assistant, but i know where is my standard in the team and what is my knowledge standard in the team. my head is more efficiency and more knowledge than me, i cannot replace his position in current and cannot imaging what will happened when he leave the team.

in my mind i have imaging if i apply classes for the team and i know is not efficiency and useless

《金陵十三釵》

一定会有朋友说我变了，我看成人电影。但我觉得《金陵十三釵》

不是什么成人电影我反而认为是一部……成长电影吧。

其实整个故事是在述说着14位来自__女院的女人从完全不看着14教堂上的女孩演变成着代替这14位教堂女孩去应付日本鬼子。从这部电影我有看出另外一种友谊关系。

老实说我常看不起女孩们老是那些什么理由，总是让我们去做一些他们不想做的事情。还说什么男女平等，我从来不相信这套。

但是看了这一部电影，我只能说女孩们或许还没发挥它们的力量，否则会让我们男生也能够好看。

或许大家也不相信我看了11部电影在这48个小时。但如果是我的弟弟们都知道我看店一个的技巧是怎么样。我很想对着11部电影的导演说声道歉。道歉我没买正版光碟也道歉我没美好好官看他们的伟大作品。

《搜查》

另一部电影我又在观看=='' 。从这一部电影我有发现到科技的可怕。
“人肉搜查”说实在的其实我有想过如果人肉搜查的后果是很难想象。
就如这部电影一样，让大家都认识这位不让座位的女士成为网络红人，每个人都在开骂。
但没有人知道他背后的故事。淋巴癌的女士的痛苦。
1个星期结束自己的生命。
这个故事的背后虽然来自网上小说，但不知什么时候它会变成我们社会的一部分。
《搜查》的故事虽然不怎么吸引但还是能让我去注意它。

《桃姐》

对自己的约法三章看来是行不通，昨天对自己说，昨天是最后一天，但是还是无法做到。

这一章是关于《桃姐》，从报章上看到这部电影的时候，我就觉得这部电影的吸引力超强。

但还是因为自己的时间不允许，到最后还不能到电影去观看。

科技的威力让我的心与脑无法接受的事实，一部电影能够被盗版流入黑市是需要一至两个月的时间。但现在最新的电影只需2个星期就能够在网上观看。

我对于一个作品的批评是非常的差，因为无法仔细的解释的关系。我只能说这部电影就像《那些年，我么一起追的女孩》一样摄影很简单，故事也很单纯，就因为这样的电影我才观看到动心。观看期间，我在想在现实我们还有多少位这样的桃姐一样照顾我们的家里大小。

我不想批评或意见，就让未来的自己回访自己对电影的感觉。

这又是另外一本书关于桃姐，我不知道自己有没有能力观看这本书，我知道自己有能力购买但观看有时另外一回事。

家里还有很多书籍还没观看，希望自己多花些时间在于观看自己购买书本。 

回去温习功课 不要再管看影片了！！！！！！！！！！！ 

第一次 [电影]

很久没有打中文字，现在写起来有点不顺，
今天我要介绍一部电影 《第一次》。

最近网上很容易找到最新的电影，就好像这部电影上个月头才上映，这个月可以上网看到。

看到很多王明批评这部电影的次序有混乱，我承认当他的录影带换去B 的时候，我就发现不对劲了，但到最后，我个人觉得很满意，也很喜欢。

这是我第二次看杨颖AngelaBaby 爱情电影，感觉上是不错。之前从报道上看过他和其他男明星传绯闻，但不知道这位明星的影片，但看了之后觉得蛮不错。现在这等他出个人专辑。 

至于这个影片从哪儿下载就要私底下和我拿XD

interest and direction

a person have a lot of interest including myself
but without planning your interest will be useless
example currently, i have a lot of interest would like to do,
i want to learn OO programming, c programming from Standford University
i would like to learn how to insert database into a website
learn java data validation type,
and most important is implement a class for TA team
i have a lot of dream in my mind like a child dreaming about future job,
but i need to manage it ! i not sure how many time i have been mention about it, and the result is improve a little and drop

i not need just manage myself and i need to manage my friend, i mean let them know what am i doing currently. so that they can corporate with me and take few task from me.

i know it sound like idiot but, i dun means my friend should take all my job and task, just help me to separate  task from me

ending of suffering

ending of suffering, it sounds very good, but it does not happen to me,
after the end of semester i review back my degree level 1 sem 1 what i have been learn
but i could not answer it, and i know the reason why
i cloud not corporate with other members in my assignment,
i could not finish my tutorial question for each module.
i know some of my friends will said i am bored. why am i mention i could finish tutorial question and other things

but this is the things that i reborn my own self from being lazy student, this is what i can said

i need efficiency timetable

i dunno why i totally stress up for my assignment, i need an efficiency timetable for my life

i have a lot of dreams for my future since i was kid, but i cannot let the dream becomes true, due to facing long time to solve the bugs and forces from the journal that i travel.

i cannot blame on others for my fault that i make. haiz...... (sigh)
continue my java for more than 100bugs that i need to solve
and other tutorial question.