changing

A lot of changes is happen around me, especially related to college. Starting a new level and meet new friends is a good things for everyone including me. But unlucky this will not last longer for me. 

this semester i can said all is group assignment and having group member is my painful, i do not know i want to find who to becomes my members.and when we form the groups i feel like they are not really like to working together. 

make a big mistake !!!!!!

for TA, currently i just have become normal back, least mistake, but try to make it becomes zero. 

a shadow of me

just now, i am having dinner in a very, very busy restaurant. we almost wait for 45 minutes for our food to come on our table. when i look at their services i feel i am stand alone with them, i feel my service provide at college is not good enough what i think.

i feel they are my shadow of me, my family members always said the bad of them, but i din, cause i know what exactly they feel, because i have same problem also.

i feel i am looking my shadow

degree level one semester one

have just started for my degree level one classes, i could not said i am free or busy, the thing i can said is so far so good.
the bad thing is i just know all the T2 in my previous class they are very hate me since semester 1, i not sure what i have been did, i just know i be the person who i dislike also.
currently i am rushing for father to give me 190 Pound to paid the study fee the dead line is on next Tuesday.

the good things is just one i know how to do my first programming and can earn more for this month
 and i hope i can do more than i think

arrive degree level one

just now my father write another check for my study around 9k my father will spend. 

my father said it was very expensive and ask me when the loan can borrow, 

and now i am worry is about the GCI class, i not sure i want to take money from he or not. 

some more i haven take my spending money. 

suddenly, i remember one of my friend who is my junior a female she know the study fee is very expensive and she started to working. how was her study? she still continue her study by study night class. 

morning she will have to work at a company with a salary. 

she was telling me she was not enough financial to paid her study and borrow from her father 

when i know this i feel very sad and admire about her, sad because of her situation admire because of her perseverance 

so i decide to use my personal money for my GCI class, and i hope i can find partner for my journal trip and have partnership before my degree level 3

trip with old friend and secret with her

yesterday, i meet a lot of old friends, most of them are my secondary school friends and is my junior. unfortunately i din take any photo with them just because most of them are girl and i shy to take photo with them.
we meet at Serdang KTM, we will going Midvalley for education fair, why related to me? because i want have relax for awhile, by not doing any staff related to home and college. and second reason is she might be going to there also (meet her at KTM)
at Midvalley we separate into few groups of course i am following her this is one of my motive to do thisBF.
i feel a little bit surprise of her friend mention that, even though is a small things, but for me is a big deal =]
during i help them to ask the question from the promoter and student service from different college.
i also feel like i am her BF including she help me to buy lunch and i help her to paid book at counter i feel super double happy on yesterday.
i have been travel 6 years regarding this relationship, i dunno can i find another people to replace her
this is the secret between her, me and feel our friends know about this i hope this doesn't adjust our relationship as best friend.
the relationship between us will continue until another girl same as her appear in front of me and i will said will build another relationship. and i will said if another relationship is reach the time and married and i will invite them in my wedding

post 401

i just know i am writing post 401 (including 2 draft)
dunno why currently after start study in college and join the team
i begin not take the exam important, even though is still important for applying scholar and loan
i just prepare for my exam tomorrow, every things just okay not very good.
in this post i would like to said that i want to set up a new objective after exam
is different from the begin of year
is more specific.
i want to off, before i forget i still have exam for tomorrow

no mood

GG first time say this in my blog
dunno why dun have the real mode for preparing my exam
this few days when i prepare for my exam, i am not using 100% of spirit to do on it.
when i saw facebook status most of my friend also doing the same things as me
facebook +study means when stress just come to facebook
tomorrow is last day for preparing i hope everything is okay and fine.

begin of new semester after 3 days holidays
study in degree level 1, need to think about the financial problem, bla bla bla
a lot of problem need to face again, but this is our life we need to face it, but one things i dislike to face is re-module. please far away from me

currently i have new blog to follow, i just knew her currently.
her blog is interesting to view it, a lot of different things i can know from there

worry

dunno why i started to worry about the girl and try to help her as i can do it
but she din do it better, i hope she will change and do it better
and join the team

the movie "John Carter"

Just watch the movie “John Carter”

Is a very nice movie, but dunno why, there is few screen between changing the situation or section the smooth of the movie is not that good, i feel that the Malaysia government or cinema manage are try to make it short 

if possible i would like to buy a DVD for this movie (if my financial is better than now)

in this movie, i just know that the fiction story are very interesting, novel is more better than movie, some part of  novel is not show on the movie, if my English is more better than now i would like to buy some fiction novel. 

another problem is the fiction novel cover is not look attractive, and there is no synopsis at back of the novel, and i do not know what are the type of novel and what it is talking about. 

now i have buy a fiction novel book from Popular Bookshop i hope i can read it finish. 

and now i try to download the fiction novel series of "John Carter" from internet

now i just know time is not enough for humans, 

and currently i try to spend on useless things.

i hope i can change it as well 

the movie poster 

meet a nice girl

today after the meeting,
i have bring a girl back to home, she look very nice.
and i have chat with her
hope she can continue at the team and i can communicate with her

daily in college

20th Feb - Monday
no duty on night shift, i should say i lucky i not requested for it, cause i am not feeling well on that day,
my throat feeling some things inside.
i have decide to change the topic of CIT assignment to Google Cloud, but its very difficult also to do it, i have change the topic with tutor, but haven discuss with group members, on the same day i discuss with them, majority of them disagree with it, i should follow with them, so we decide to ask our lecturer opinion on tomorrow.

21st Feb - Tuesday
din take medicine yesterday, not feeling very good today, and another lucky for me to said is i never request duty for today. We have discuss with our lecturer, he said we should continue our assignment topic not need change to another topic, i feel relax cause we not need to redo again for our assignment for changing a new topic still remain the same things, having medicine and have good sleep

22nd Feb - Wed
wake up very early, cant do anythings the nose haven clean up still got nasal, cant concentrate to do my assignment for CIT and PT, just can finish for PT assignment for tomorrow presentation, and for tomorrow meeting, sorry to said i cant do anythings for tomorrow CIT meeting.

23rd Feb - Thurs
today morning shift have a bit rushing for deployed machine to APIIT admin and S.S department
after that rushing for going for OSE class for presentation. during OSE presentation, i feel i have a bit bad for the performance, like i am talking somethings before showing the slides, after showing the slides i always said "as i mention....." i need to have improve for this.
during PT another presentation, but for PT i feel very comfortable and good performance for past 3 weeks i hope i still can have good performance for next week and ask lecturer opinion about mine presentation improvement.
CIT meeting fail again to conduct the meeting, everything is look so ugly dun have arrangement, just can inform them speed up the task, and i will gather all the file in one and send the mail update and fb massage update by today night


this week, i feel very surfer, but until now, i still feel okay. and i have decide to join May intake no more Mar intake,as i think i need to prepare a lot of things during this 2 months, hope i can preparing well, if not all my time and affect is becomes burbles

stress up

begin today midnight until now i haven finish all my task yet, and now i receive tension sms to me
i dunno how i want to solve this problem, i feel my heart is burning and my liver is booming my kidney is kind of faster machine in the world.

how can my assignment be like this such situation

i want to ask how much time i leave to survive in this world,
the thing i hope the next Monday i still can come back to home safety.

panic

i am very panic for having a car or transportation
having a car we need to have maintenance for it
last week is small car water tank spoil
this week is the big car fan spoil
What the hack is this ==''
one is 19 years and another just 10 years!!!
i cant believe the 10 years car have a lot of problem
tomorrow how should i go to college
panic now very panic
especially i have duty on night shift for recently
is very suffer and hard

semester 2 busying

Totally very stress,

Need to keep on update for two assignments, it was make me very nervous I should said thank you for the OSE group members you all make me feel happy and scads also >.<

I do not know how you all were thinking, but in my mind, I was very stress, if my group members did not give me any task to do it. Especially in semester one, I have tried and I know it.

I feel happy to have you all in my group, I do not know how was me in your mind, but I hope it wasn’t too bad for you all (cause you all always keep comment other people)

Enough for express continue my work, tomorrow still need to work with father. I hope I can finish 65% by today all the works. 

briefing for trip

today we all have the briefing for the trip,
we all lough together long  time we din do like this already
just hope our trip is very fun, before waiting the trip i need to do a lot of things by tomorrow and Thursday

and i will post a lot of picture after the trip

just hope i can do it so
nothings much to write, ut i still have a lot of assignment and things need to do research

another surfer time

another surfer time again for me to do it

dunno why is it just happen for me 

i need to balance my time for study and work again 

every time happen when exam is coming soon 

i hope this is my last change 

memory picture

when i take this picture? i also dunno
but when i saw this picture i can recognize everyone inside the picture
when we talk about this picture, we all also dunno when we take this
i just can said time is passing so fast
and time is just like magic

CNY 2012 - day 2

Second day of CNY

Today not things happen just watch some ghost movie and play few round of mahjong

Today will going back to KL nothing special for me. I just saw one of my cousin her dressing is change a lot

Is changing become more beauty and her mobile phone keep on ringing

Haha, not like me just like normal nothing change

The CNY just end like this

Not like previous

I have a bit blur what I happen been dome last year CNY

After this I went back I have a look

As I remember two years ago I play mahjong and Jack 21 I win a lot but not this year I lost a lot ==''

Previously I just hope I can put some attractive post by CNY but it does not

Raining day short period for CNY

I just hope on Langkawi trip next week will be more fun for me

Meanwhile I am typing at here my grandmother was chat with me, she mention about the cousin and aunt, from the conversation I saw the powerful of time

When I reach her age how I will be during CNY

Am I will be alone ? Am I sitting together with my grandchildren?

Hope I will be more better. =]

CNY 2012

Frst day of CNY

I update this post without using blog but is update in my PC

This year Chinese new Year a bit boring for it, cause on 30 and 1st night the day was raining

A lot of friend could not do any things including me cannot see firewood and cannot go Tanjung with a big family to have rojak and view the sea site, a bit miss last year movement when we go there.

Even though is CNY now, but I still need to complete my assignment between CNY

I sound so wired and boring, but is true I need to complete it and send the draft to lecturer by this Thursday

On my father site I still can chat together, but on my mother site here, I feel nothings to do at here, just feel like normal day in house at KL

Now I can feel what it means by "CNY not like CNY no more CNY in our life"

Miss the time miss the movement we having fun

The year when I was kid, it just a part of memory now

I hope after the CNY I will become normal back and continue my life like a hell

Haha 

meet her

today i went back early so i decide go to Mines for awhile because i want searching for my sport shoes for repair. while i am searching i meet her again, but this time i try to not looking to her, but she ran quickly away.
dunno what is the reason. is she still remember that morning sms ? or other?

i not sure about this and dun go and ask her.

now i just hope we still have chance to meet each other and chat