be a bad guy

i will be a bad guy, a very very bed guy
why? because i will leave a group for my assignment and join the other to release my load
it was make me feel very tired and tired and i feel dun want to stay more longer at this situation so i decide to leave

to my friend who shock to saw this, so sorry this is me, i cannot stay more longer in this situation

complaint

on last friday 15-06-2012
have group work with assignment, i though my group mate will do some efficiency work to me
but this is the dream that cannot be done,
the result is they spend 2.15 hours, they just do 1.5 hours work to me,
and one of them are not doing work at all.
i wanted start to complaint them, but i din do that, as i always tell myself no people can be perfect
when i start to discuss with them another assignment, they make a joke said that they want to get or hired people to do that assignment, i eventually very shock, when he saying that,
feel want to ask them a question, "Why are you studying at here ?Since you would like hired or get help from others to finish your task"

i just can tell my own i am unlucky this time

not feel well

now is 11.30 pm actually i on the since 9.30 but i cannot sleep well because of assignment
i feel very scad in this semester, i feel i still not learning something, other senior in this level and sem
was learning a lot, this will make me feel scad
i feel i am far from the society trend
tired and cant sleep
such a horrible night for me

brother (continue)

sometime i feel i am fail to be brother, because i cannot control and be good with my 2 little brother.

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today feel so emo because of assignment again

assignment assignment you are now my big headache things in my university life, i would like to kick you out from headache mind !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cant write more already haha

(under crazy mood, due to crazy thinking again)

brother

hahaha big lough for 3 time
this is one of the way release stress, before 3.30 o'clock today i was very stress for past 1 week, after that time i was a bit release, but not using laughing 3 time, is chatting to someone.
it sound like idiot, a male using chatting to release stress but not gaming but is true to tell that this is true for me.
because i not a good gamer XD
talking about today, i am chatting with one junior from my secondary school, our topic to talk is very huge and time spending is very long we talk from academic, life, friend, even our behavior, impression for other.

now someone is wondering what is the relation topic and content? the topic should be chatting or gathering.
because, during the chatting, the impression i give to mu junior in the past few years is not just a senior, is also like a brother, and i just remember the same impression i give to other junior the following place, but follow is to my junior dialog


Jusco movie + your house : congratulation, you have been find your life destination and study in mmu with courses you would like to take, you said your friends from secondary school are getting least contact to you, but i told you, you are wrong because most of you want to come out but scad they are very busy, when you try to contact them and ask them, they will try to find time for to gather.


TTJ old town : lucky you din go Segi university study as you dun listen my advice, and continue study at Sunway, if you follow i will feel regards for my whole life, because you are following my instruction not your heart


mines old town + YQ camp : i dunno when you will come back from your PLKN, just remind you again that the Segi university study environment is not so good, you can ask your sister opinion, dun be always so sad with your life condition, it might become good in future. if i not mistake our first chatting is related to curricular marks XD


pat kin pat sun cafe + YQ camp:  today i was chatting with you, thanks for you spending time to me to release my stress, it makes me happy and smile always until current i am typing this post i also feel happily (crazy condition)

same primary school + YQ camp: hahaha you are the first girl to tell me that i act a brother, same primary school with you, still remember i know you from  "_ _  L_ _ _" girl and first time to chatting topic is regarding camp and invite other people. 

and other i forget already because i spending 2 hours to type this content    XD

my degree lvl 1 sem1 mid term semester break

how was my sem break holiday ?
i cannot define by one word, because it was not just fun, boring , great, good, happy, sad.
is all together. as mention previous post,
i have made time table for this ween, so how was the result of it?
i just can give 60% to myself, compare foundation year it was becomes worst
the reason is my group members did not come to college, and i cannot update and conduct the meeting and separate task. should i blame them or i should blame myself that did not care the other and did not give them free time to do their things.

i have post to fb that, we will have another meeting on tomorrow i hope they will come.
tomorrow, i will conduct three meeting, and i hope i can do it.

FUDCon KL 2012

have my first time event in my college,
this post supposed is updated and post already, but i dunno why it still in the draft
i have bad habit, never record on time, and times is going i will be forget about the event.

anyway FUDCon KL 2012 is a great event i have, but it still have a lot of improvement need to be done
at other country they setup for 1 years, but us is setup by 8 weeks,

but everything still okay =)

Some time

Some time, some how i also dun know what am i doing,
waiting the other coming, waiting the responds
now i am feeling very angry and no mood to do my task
i dunno who should i scold, i should scold at me or group mate.
i setup timetable for the whole week, what i want

BB = Busy + blur

currently i was very busy with a lot of staff, until i feel i am getting fatter and fatter, due to not follow schedule for eating.

currently, i have receive 4 assignments already in this semester, and some more i want to join 2 IT events.
1 is for FUDCon KL 2012 which is this Friday will begin the event, next event will be on 5th of June for Puppetcamp.
it sound very annoying and stupid that i want to join event whereby i am very busy with my main thing.
there is a reason behind i join this few event, first i dun have IT background and knowledge, what i have is the story behind of a successful IT leader. u dunno what is TCP/IP. so i want to join event to improve myself.

and this semester assignments are very horrible, all is group assignment, i feel like going to hell like that

feel boring and annoying to mention assignment, just stop it at here

tension

i though i can stay back on today to do something for my task as i plan, but unlucky i think i could not do it, because of tension, tension comes from i dunno how to do and i was fell very sleepy.

arrrhhh...

what should i do and how

changing

A lot of changes is happen around me, especially related to college. Starting a new level and meet new friends is a good things for everyone including me. But unlucky this will not last longer for me. 

this semester i can said all is group assignment and having group member is my painful, i do not know i want to find who to becomes my members.and when we form the groups i feel like they are not really like to working together. 

make a big mistake !!!!!!

for TA, currently i just have become normal back, least mistake, but try to make it becomes zero. 

a shadow of me

just now, i am having dinner in a very, very busy restaurant. we almost wait for 45 minutes for our food to come on our table. when i look at their services i feel i am stand alone with them, i feel my service provide at college is not good enough what i think.

i feel they are my shadow of me, my family members always said the bad of them, but i din, cause i know what exactly they feel, because i have same problem also.

i feel i am looking my shadow

degree level one semester one

have just started for my degree level one classes, i could not said i am free or busy, the thing i can said is so far so good.
the bad thing is i just know all the T2 in my previous class they are very hate me since semester 1, i not sure what i have been did, i just know i be the person who i dislike also.
currently i am rushing for father to give me 190 Pound to paid the study fee the dead line is on next Tuesday.

the good things is just one i know how to do my first programming and can earn more for this month
 and i hope i can do more than i think

arrive degree level one

just now my father write another check for my study around 9k my father will spend. 

my father said it was very expensive and ask me when the loan can borrow, 

and now i am worry is about the GCI class, i not sure i want to take money from he or not. 

some more i haven take my spending money. 

suddenly, i remember one of my friend who is my junior a female she know the study fee is very expensive and she started to working. how was her study? she still continue her study by study night class. 

morning she will have to work at a company with a salary. 

she was telling me she was not enough financial to paid her study and borrow from her father 

when i know this i feel very sad and admire about her, sad because of her situation admire because of her perseverance 

so i decide to use my personal money for my GCI class, and i hope i can find partner for my journal trip and have partnership before my degree level 3

trip with old friend and secret with her

yesterday, i meet a lot of old friends, most of them are my secondary school friends and is my junior. unfortunately i din take any photo with them just because most of them are girl and i shy to take photo with them.
we meet at Serdang KTM, we will going Midvalley for education fair, why related to me? because i want have relax for awhile, by not doing any staff related to home and college. and second reason is she might be going to there also (meet her at KTM)
at Midvalley we separate into few groups of course i am following her this is one of my motive to do thisBF.
i feel a little bit surprise of her friend mention that, even though is a small things, but for me is a big deal =]
during i help them to ask the question from the promoter and student service from different college.
i also feel like i am her BF including she help me to buy lunch and i help her to paid book at counter i feel super double happy on yesterday.
i have been travel 6 years regarding this relationship, i dunno can i find another people to replace her
this is the secret between her, me and feel our friends know about this i hope this doesn't adjust our relationship as best friend.
the relationship between us will continue until another girl same as her appear in front of me and i will said will build another relationship. and i will said if another relationship is reach the time and married and i will invite them in my wedding

post 401

i just know i am writing post 401 (including 2 draft)
dunno why currently after start study in college and join the team
i begin not take the exam important, even though is still important for applying scholar and loan
i just prepare for my exam tomorrow, every things just okay not very good.
in this post i would like to said that i want to set up a new objective after exam
is different from the begin of year
is more specific.
i want to off, before i forget i still have exam for tomorrow

no mood

GG first time say this in my blog
dunno why dun have the real mode for preparing my exam
this few days when i prepare for my exam, i am not using 100% of spirit to do on it.
when i saw facebook status most of my friend also doing the same things as me
facebook +study means when stress just come to facebook
tomorrow is last day for preparing i hope everything is okay and fine.

begin of new semester after 3 days holidays
study in degree level 1, need to think about the financial problem, bla bla bla
a lot of problem need to face again, but this is our life we need to face it, but one things i dislike to face is re-module. please far away from me

currently i have new blog to follow, i just knew her currently.
her blog is interesting to view it, a lot of different things i can know from there

worry

dunno why i started to worry about the girl and try to help her as i can do it
but she din do it better, i hope she will change and do it better
and join the team

the movie "John Carter"

Just watch the movie “John Carter”

Is a very nice movie, but dunno why, there is few screen between changing the situation or section the smooth of the movie is not that good, i feel that the Malaysia government or cinema manage are try to make it short 

if possible i would like to buy a DVD for this movie (if my financial is better than now)

in this movie, i just know that the fiction story are very interesting, novel is more better than movie, some part of  novel is not show on the movie, if my English is more better than now i would like to buy some fiction novel. 

another problem is the fiction novel cover is not look attractive, and there is no synopsis at back of the novel, and i do not know what are the type of novel and what it is talking about. 

now i have buy a fiction novel book from Popular Bookshop i hope i can read it finish. 

and now i try to download the fiction novel series of "John Carter" from internet

now i just know time is not enough for humans, 

and currently i try to spend on useless things.

i hope i can change it as well 

the movie poster 

meet a nice girl

today after the meeting,
i have bring a girl back to home, she look very nice.
and i have chat with her
hope she can continue at the team and i can communicate with her