fail to do i`m finished with fins

while taking bath and thinking about the assignment and coursework, suddenly my cousin wedding,
out of sudden i remember i just join a reunion dinner other than CNY family reunion, and i eat the most traditional items in reunion dinner fins......
i still remember i din eat for beginning of year, for few CNY dinner for parent company and my internship company, that time i feel how people looking at me, and i feel scare because i am alone that did not eat, even some of them tell me is fake one but i feel i must independent and continue to support the activity "i`m finished with fins" but for that time i break the record and i currently feel guilty for it, the time when attend family reunion, i was think if i din eat, i will bring the disappointed to family and other staffs.

currently one of my cousin will have wedding dinner, and i hope he wont have fins in his wedding dinner meal and i hope that did not affect their relationship (he and his fiancee)

a normal post get back for study :(