first time watch movie with the geng

on last Saturday (1/12/2012) is the first day of the December and we can countdown for 20 days for end of the world. i have my friend's birthday on that day, and at the same day i went out with them

nuclear boom version X

i am not sure i have write how many time for my boom or nuclear version post
and is a long time i did not write my blog post, is time i write this post to renew it,
and this post make my life upside down.

today got corporate training installation and the nuclear boom start that time,
i could not do the network ghosting due to the lacking of knowledge and did chase the knowledge from the person
and when i check the mouse location and i get lose of it, because i fail to find it and there is something happen with me and the staff

and the staff happen with my friend

and i never forget about it

special for you

since last post is long time ago, and most of my post change to twitter, but this post must be at here.
today i read a short novel in newspaper, i decide to write this at here before i forget it.
2587 ++ message when i look back our facebook conversation. i still remember the first conversation we have is related with your driving timetable

movie that i watch at home in this sem break

no time description, but overall all these movies are very nice

a post for a moth update

i not sure i can type this finish or not, because i least update in blog, most of my update are too little and easy to get forget. So i decide update at twitter.
and i will do a summary for this post for my October situation.

Trainee period just finish, and my stress haven release, the tension still stay around with me.
and i believe a lot of people will said i am super hansap. and i hope this will change in future November
still cannot change i still very stress up when doing task, always multiple time to get things
few friend are leaving in the team and i will miss them a lot especially the twins, the twins is the cute girl i never meet before. i should remember what is my comment on them, every things is the same other than one is wear spec another is not, still remember the trainee briefing they can go early, but i cant feel jealous of that.

almost every day i stay back for the team and cannot fulfill my assignment and homework, hopefully i can finish my duty quota for lab and i can concentrate.

the war of "in between" is not just  happen during my work is also happen during between my friends

and i have a lot of lesson in October month

a lot of things happen

currently, a lot of things happen on me, i cannot update at here, everything happen is a small case, but when you collect it, it will become a big problem for me. and i could not always update at here. the place i current always update is on twitter, and most of them shows that i am emo

this is the things i can said

how many i can do and how can i do

This post should be post by last week, regarding comment to a trainee, but fail to do so, and with same title and post with this, i cant believe when i review my blog post last months i just post 3 post, it means i am too busy or too tired or stress

this is for my first post on Oct, last week i have set timetable for me, but fail to apply due to too general and something happen

Thursday is a nightmare for me
Friday is a suffering for me
Saturday is bluring for me
Today is a okay okay for me
i hope tomorrow is okay fine for me

haiz.......

In between

last week Saturday actually i have a post, but no more mood no more feeling regarding the post, and i delete it. let me recall my memory, since when i stop playing tetris ? i think it has been a month i never play, this month i always busy with the TA things, currently there is new recruitment drive, and i feel i need teach them something during duty, and i dunno why am i so motivated to teach them, and now i feel dun want to teach them any more,

i am back to origin when i become TA from trainee, blur. and i still remember last Tuesday to Thursday got heavy deployment from Mines to Ent3 and from main building to Incubator II this things was happen in between 2 days, it sound like we are plan well, eventually we are doing last minutes, on the next day, we receive info that we need to collect back ...... !!!!!!

i cant believe, we need to do that, and i was blur why they do that, after i know from staff there was VIP and important visitor will come to visit and we need to prepare the machines in those places. To allow them take picture.......... i was noting to said.

and another event happen, in lab there was another emergency for Corporate Training, Saturday should have   class for more than 20 machines are required, but it request last minutes again, and yesterday what i saw in lab there was no class.

this week totally like hell for me, and i in between the two person war this is what i can express

my feeling

i check back my blog, the last post of my blog is on last Saturday one week before. 

that time i still remember i become a head and having panic time in uni (task cannot finish), 

and this week is the of trainee coming into the team. 

how was my feel for the trainee period? in the previous trainee period, i was always looking at female 

same goes to this time, but with different feeling, the feeling that i receive info from parent about our family background. 

this week like very very very busy and stress, last week Sunday prepare the lab, currently the lab is having problem. need to be standby mode for repair the lab, it was so stress for me. 

" we must work smart but not work hard "

i still remember this sentence come out from my supervisor, i believe my work is fulfill his requirement, 

and same goes to yesterday

tension

on Monday, receive a boom news, i become a head of a department. become a assistant i was very panic now becomes another department head, totally i dun have any other idea. At that movement, i still dunno that today will be the tension day. as happen on Thursday morning, receive info from my assistant i need to prepare an image for today and i did the mistake until now

first mistake: using Windows server 2008 R2 standard
second mistake: download window server SP1 and install in standard format
third mistake: doing something wrong in material
forth mistake: know the standard server unable to use in native boot
fifth mistake: find a crash hard disk for creating image
sixth mistake: ...... i dun want to write it again

the current problem i am facing also is my finance problem. according my records, my expenses is getting more and more in following months. and i getting more4 money also from parents but not from my salary. in the same time i need to i need to solve my education fee, my loan haven come out yet from government.

some more i get a confirm information from my mom,
my dad had diabetes and it was a hereditary from my grandpa,
and now i know already why my father legs is get wound and currently i find out there are a lot of  medicine on his table.

now i know the time is passing so fast

tension tension tension

《放学后的初恋》

这本故事原本在星期二就已读完只是没时间来这里上载自己的分享。还好的是我害己的李缅的故事内容。

这故事说着一个女孩在这几的补习中心认识一位男同学，对他有好感，但是没有好好的发展，因为一些误解一些错误让他们不能成为情侣，但却让他们在爱情路上成长。

看到最后我很想问自己，我和她是能够谈一次恋爱还是我们的关系只能够让我们成长？

虽然这薄片帖子是很短，但这个故事的却放映了我现在的状况是如何。

《我们之间的零距离》《童话之城》《奇幻马戏团》

昨天终于看完了3本红蜻蜓小说。说真的这一尺的故事很强、很好、很棒。
不像以前那么死板板。在这里我就分享什么地方吸引我

《我们之间的零距离》

16岁与40岁有多大的距离？答案是24。这是任何人都够回答的简单数学题。
但如果一个40岁的大人失去了26年的记忆，会到从前的16岁又是怎样？
这里的故事是说一位严格的父亲对自己女儿要求很高。
突然一夜间这位父亲失去了26年的记忆，起身时不纪律，身上的衣服有不整齐。
他的女儿可吓坏了，一位严格的父亲竟变成这样。
后来他的女儿和邻居阿姨都发现以前的父亲和自己很相像，以前常常认为自己是不是父亲的亲生女儿。
17岁那年，父亲是受了什么刺激而变成26年的他。

小说里透的父亲工作是电脑软件工程师，这就应起我的兴趣，很想知道一位小说家是如何看待电脑软件工程师的解说，可以看得出，作者形容得不错，说电脑软件工程师很有责任（只有小部分）很有兴趣的是，我很想知道为什么这问父亲是怎样从“调浪荡”变成责任的人。
原来是因为失去初恋，可怕的是自己的好友抢走自己的初恋。从那以后这位父亲就把自己的学业，生意和家庭放在第一，至于朋友，他永远都不会再相信直到这一次的失忆。才发现自己的错误。

最感人的一部分就是，这位父亲回去自己的家乡建自己的初恋的人在一间茶餐室。用不同的方式回味自己的过去。感觉还蛮不错。

这个故事说到一个小女孩（童话）通过爷爷的童话故事的启发寻找着故事里的真实，查着查着不知不觉发现故事里透和现在的村子一模一样，通话也开始发现爷爷和自己并不是亲爷孙的关系，也发现故事里的巫婆事说着自己的母亲自己的身世。其实我看到接近结尾的是我已经准备看电影了（Step Up Revolution) 所以大部分在这个小说的感觉已不见，但我还记得的是

从亲生爷爷变去不是亲生爷爷在后来发现原来他本来就是自己亲生爷爷的感觉，

我觉得这是让故事里的主角最难受的地方。也从故事里面看到爷爷的用心，以及爷爷的约定，对自己的孩子对自己的孙女在对自己的媳妇。

觉得故事里的爷爷真的很伟大

这个故事我觉得好像有点像Alice and the wonderland 的感觉，跌倒然后到另外一个奇妙的世界。但不同的是这个故事有联系到动物的生命以及人类的残忍。


我的感觉渐渐的消失着，我也只能够回味到这么多，还没够买的朋友请记得购买

Step up Revolution

just come back from cinema, and again i watch movie alone, but is okay for me, talk about this movie, it was very awesome like previous, no, i should said is better than previous, if i not mistake they have perform 6 shot dance but 1 of it was the worse case scenario, i was thinking there are some familiar face i have inside the firm, and i not mistake the boy appear again even though he just show up awhile i still miss him and i still recognize him, the person who appear since set up 2, 3 and even now 4.

he had a good performance in this movie.

great great great great this what i can said for this movie

book fair

today, i went to book fair again, why am i said again ? because i still have a lot of books in pending status that i haven read yet XD

and i still want to go book fair and i dunno why. regarding this book fair i feel i am spending a lot on transport, if i am not mistake i spend around rm15 eventually if i spend on public transport i believe i can just spend below rm10

after i reach i go to purchase my accessories, i am lacking some of it, after that i go to book area to purchase  some of the books, and after finish purchase, and i try to contact my sis, i though she also come in to the book fair, but is not she just wanted to come in book fair =='' so i choose to follow them since i have purchase the accessories and books that i need, when i do that, my sis feel i am very annoy or something else  because i always follow them and not thing to do like that, and she ask me why dun contact She?

i just feel the time is just stop for awhile, and i just answer because i shy and i dunno want to talk about what. After that i try to sms to She but fail to get reply from her, after around 1 hour, i dunno how came i so brave try to contact with She and ask somethings else, but i fail again, and i think am i so annoy like how my sis look at me? and i though i still can meet her like how lucky am i in last year, but and again i try to go around and i cannot fine She, and i went back on 3pm. 

after i went back, i saw She online Facebook that is wired, because normally she did not online, and i try to send message to She, but i think i fail to get reply and She will get offline, but she reply me and she just said she also back on 3pm 

i feel me and she does not have the fate and luck to meet each other, i dunno we will be the couple or not, or we can just become a friend pass through our life only, like some of the short passage in newspaper or novel. i hope at least last chance to me. 

《阵头》

我不知道说自己什么，原本说好考完试以后要做很多东西，就因为网络太厉害了，而我又无法控制自己的欲望，常常找着自己以前很想看的电影又没去看又没去购买光碟。结果自己还跑去wiki找有什么电影我是没更新，找找这位演员郭去的电影记录。

一看就看了4部电影（估计），而我也无法控制自己观看电影，很难想象，星期三我又在区看电影了

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接下来电影介绍时间又到了，《阵头》这部电影超级难找，有尝试在网上找过，但之前找到的是20年代的电影而且是恐怖电影。

这部电影时说道台湾文化三太子或阵头十一个传统的文化。故事说到一个年轻人带领着几个家庭被应有问题的孩子和一位成长有问题的孩子。我原以为我可以从这部电影看到三太子舞，但可惜我只听到很多鼓声，但这也不错，我很喜欢鼓声的节奏。
电影里面我只看到充满勇气和蛮力的少年。在这部电影我也看到一个启示
“有勇气改变东西，就有不同的效果，但没有用其和恒心是不可能玩成”

today 15082012

today is Wednesday is my last day of exam for degree level 1 semester 1
how was  it?

the last day of the exam means today is a upsite down
the things i do revision just come out for 10 marks and the other i just based on my feeling

and i come out after 45 mins, it sound stupid and radiculous.

after the exam i straight away spend money not for joke and fun but for the other purpose

today i went to 3 shoping mall == i know it sound like what am i doing for 3 shopping mall ?

SCP, Mines and Jusco selatan

actually i go to SCP for my exam and Mines for buying a tie and Jusco Selatatn for watching movie ,

for this holiday i would like to used to watch 2 movies and go for book fair with friends.

the movie i watch is "Total Recall"

i can said it was very good and awesome. especially choosing the girl starring
the two main female actor which is Kate Beckinsale and Jessica Biel
i dunno why the other commenter and the other viewer said that this movie is too bored
for me, i love this movie, may be the reason is this movie has been taken 10 years before they feel this movie is no more attractive for them, every single step and change of the movie they know well
Jessica is the first time i saw her in movie, she did it very well,
and Kate i not need to said about it, she just like the main actor in the movie.

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today i call her again like last month, but this time is shorter than last month and i feel she very bored and tired to talk with me, is it because of me calling or is because of study. i am blur right now

when can i change

haiz.................

when can i change, the exam period is nearly end, and i still not yet prepare, 

still have a lot of plan in pending mode 

i want let the mode be off and start to do my work and plan 

please please please be wake up 

《醉后一夜》

我选了两张海报，不知道哪一张好看。网络无所不在，很容易就能够得到资讯用不当就会自食其果。如果我在这样下去我知道自己会完蛋呆不下去。

好了不说着伤感情事情。就说这部电影吧！这部电影的预告我管看过了，只所以我这么先看这部电影原因是他的故事情节太吸引我了。

早上醒来发现自己全裸的在床上和不认识的异性在一起，又发现他们不是在酒店床上然而是在展览厅的摆设床。这可够扯。我太欣赏这部电影。

完全没有任何回忆，就在这24个小时他们陆陆续续的知道和发现这一整晚他们都在哪里。

故事的缺点是，我知道他们去过什么地方，但我不知道次序如何，是从哪里再到那里。

不过导演或电影没有出现也对这才符合他们主题《醉后一夜》 / 《片了断》

bad life style

in the past one week, i have a bad life style, sleep late and wake up early after having breakfast 1.5 hours go back sleep again, on evening i have a package of while coffee from restaurant, on night watch drama or movie mostly or somethings i will do revision note for awhile and sometime.

and now i want to said that i have watch
1 Taiwan drama
9 China movies
8 Taiwan movies
4 Hon Kong movies
and 4 English Movie

i am like announce somethings not relevant but something, and 2 more days is my exam start total got 5 module and i just study for 3module and 3 modules is not really okay also



OMG！！！！！！！！！what am i doing !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



haiz.......................................

quality and efficiency

today go to university, just because of the meeting.
today meeting is mention about the efficiency of the member in the team.
i can observe that our team quality is not good as previous, example is me, i do not know anything, even i am  a department assistant, but i know where is my standard in the team and what is my knowledge standard in the team. my head is more efficiency and more knowledge than me, i cannot replace his position in current and cannot imaging what will happened when he leave the team.

in my mind i have imaging if i apply classes for the team and i know is not efficiency and useless

《金陵十三釵》

一定会有朋友说我变了，我看成人电影。但我觉得《金陵十三釵》

不是什么成人电影我反而认为是一部……成长电影吧。

其实整个故事是在述说着14位来自__女院的女人从完全不看着14教堂上的女孩演变成着代替这14位教堂女孩去应付日本鬼子。从这部电影我有看出另外一种友谊关系。

老实说我常看不起女孩们老是那些什么理由，总是让我们去做一些他们不想做的事情。还说什么男女平等，我从来不相信这套。

但是看了这一部电影，我只能说女孩们或许还没发挥它们的力量，否则会让我们男生也能够好看。

或许大家也不相信我看了11部电影在这48个小时。但如果是我的弟弟们都知道我看店一个的技巧是怎么样。我很想对着11部电影的导演说声道歉。道歉我没买正版光碟也道歉我没美好好官看他们的伟大作品。

《搜查》

另一部电影我又在观看=='' 。从这一部电影我有发现到科技的可怕。
“人肉搜查”说实在的其实我有想过如果人肉搜查的后果是很难想象。
就如这部电影一样，让大家都认识这位不让座位的女士成为网络红人，每个人都在开骂。
但没有人知道他背后的故事。淋巴癌的女士的痛苦。
1个星期结束自己的生命。
这个故事的背后虽然来自网上小说，但不知什么时候它会变成我们社会的一部分。
《搜查》的故事虽然不怎么吸引但还是能让我去注意它。

《桃姐》

对自己的约法三章看来是行不通，昨天对自己说，昨天是最后一天，但是还是无法做到。

这一章是关于《桃姐》，从报章上看到这部电影的时候，我就觉得这部电影的吸引力超强。

但还是因为自己的时间不允许，到最后还不能到电影去观看。

科技的威力让我的心与脑无法接受的事实，一部电影能够被盗版流入黑市是需要一至两个月的时间。但现在最新的电影只需2个星期就能够在网上观看。

我对于一个作品的批评是非常的差，因为无法仔细的解释的关系。我只能说这部电影就像《那些年，我么一起追的女孩》一样摄影很简单，故事也很单纯，就因为这样的电影我才观看到动心。观看期间，我在想在现实我们还有多少位这样的桃姐一样照顾我们的家里大小。

我不想批评或意见，就让未来的自己回访自己对电影的感觉。

这又是另外一本书关于桃姐，我不知道自己有没有能力观看这本书，我知道自己有能力购买但观看有时另外一回事。

家里还有很多书籍还没观看，希望自己多花些时间在于观看自己购买书本。 

回去温习功课 不要再管看影片了！！！！！！！！！！！ 

第一次 [电影]

很久没有打中文字，现在写起来有点不顺，
今天我要介绍一部电影 《第一次》。

最近网上很容易找到最新的电影，就好像这部电影上个月头才上映，这个月可以上网看到。

看到很多王明批评这部电影的次序有混乱，我承认当他的录影带换去B 的时候，我就发现不对劲了，但到最后，我个人觉得很满意，也很喜欢。

这是我第二次看杨颖AngelaBaby 爱情电影，感觉上是不错。之前从报道上看过他和其他男明星传绯闻，但不知道这位明星的影片，但看了之后觉得蛮不错。现在这等他出个人专辑。 

至于这个影片从哪儿下载就要私底下和我拿XD

interest and direction

a person have a lot of interest including myself
but without planning your interest will be useless
example currently, i have a lot of interest would like to do,
i want to learn OO programming, c programming from Standford University
i would like to learn how to insert database into a website
learn java data validation type,
and most important is implement a class for TA team
i have a lot of dream in my mind like a child dreaming about future job,
but i need to manage it ! i not sure how many time i have been mention about it, and the result is improve a little and drop

i not need just manage myself and i need to manage my friend, i mean let them know what am i doing currently. so that they can corporate with me and take few task from me.

i know it sound like idiot but, i dun means my friend should take all my job and task, just help me to separate  task from me

ending of suffering

ending of suffering, it sounds very good, but it does not happen to me,
after the end of semester i review back my degree level 1 sem 1 what i have been learn
but i could not answer it, and i know the reason why
i cloud not corporate with other members in my assignment,
i could not finish my tutorial question for each module.
i know some of my friends will said i am bored. why am i mention i could finish tutorial question and other things

but this is the things that i reborn my own self from being lazy student, this is what i can said

i need efficiency timetable

i dunno why i totally stress up for my assignment, i need an efficiency timetable for my life

i have a lot of dreams for my future since i was kid, but i cannot let the dream becomes true, due to facing long time to solve the bugs and forces from the journal that i travel.

i cannot blame on others for my fault that i make. haiz...... (sigh)
continue my java for more than 100bugs that i need to solve
and other tutorial question.

a busted day ==''

as mention yesterday post, i have invite by supervisor for the meeting i though i will be scold by him in the meeting but it does not, i have been invite be a board members = ='' i was a bit surprised, when he announced it, i though it will happened in my dream.

now i will be more responsible and more stress !!!

continue my java now

tomorrow is another big day

on Monday or early than that, i receive a message or special task from my supervisor, to do something and stay back on this Thursday after 6pm in lab, i do not know what task he want to past to me or i did somethings wrong and he want to punish me on tomorrow, just wait only i cant think so many things, because i still have a lot of think need to be complete especially the study

continue my study now

the day before birthday

The title like very very strange, but is true this post is write a day before my birthday

a day end of June and a day before of July. 

i wake up very early like 5.15 pm, due to i find out the solution for the program i create yesterday night

and after that i could not sleep just because i to excited for solving a problem. 

after having my breakfast i meet my secondary school junior at our school 

when i meet them like obviously they will be stay at there din movie, due to my new hairstyle

after that we meet together at restaurant, and she is with us and i try to chat her, but i fail to do so ==''

seriously my mind is totally blind, i dunno how to talk with her, what i do is just listen her only, and know some new things from her, when she try to chat with my sister, i dunno why i feel my sister always look at me, she look like is she taking the chances of me to talk to her, i want to tell her, she never did that, caused i dun have the chance to chat with her also==''

in this small gathering, i just know they still contact each other and have gathering, that is the things make me feel happy that they still contact each other, i dunno this can last how long, but i hope it will last until the end of the world. 

and my status, i will wait until a person tell me, or i will continue loving her alone until ....... the day i dunno also 

long time

since last time i call you is like2 years ago, i remember that time i call you for the sport reason, yesterday call back to you again, it was such a good recall for me

timetable

Recently,i always build weekly timetable for myself,but for sure is, i cannot always follow it, the reason is everyday always got somethings happen and i could not finish my task according my timetable
what should i do

be a bad guy

i will be a bad guy, a very very bed guy
why? because i will leave a group for my assignment and join the other to release my load
it was make me feel very tired and tired and i feel dun want to stay more longer at this situation so i decide to leave

to my friend who shock to saw this, so sorry this is me, i cannot stay more longer in this situation

complaint

on last friday 15-06-2012
have group work with assignment, i though my group mate will do some efficiency work to me
but this is the dream that cannot be done,
the result is they spend 2.15 hours, they just do 1.5 hours work to me,
and one of them are not doing work at all.
i wanted start to complaint them, but i din do that, as i always tell myself no people can be perfect
when i start to discuss with them another assignment, they make a joke said that they want to get or hired people to do that assignment, i eventually very shock, when he saying that,
feel want to ask them a question, "Why are you studying at here ?Since you would like hired or get help from others to finish your task"

i just can tell my own i am unlucky this time

not feel well

now is 11.30 pm actually i on the since 9.30 but i cannot sleep well because of assignment
i feel very scad in this semester, i feel i still not learning something, other senior in this level and sem
was learning a lot, this will make me feel scad
i feel i am far from the society trend
tired and cant sleep
such a horrible night for me

brother (continue)

sometime i feel i am fail to be brother, because i cannot control and be good with my 2 little brother.

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today feel so emo because of assignment again

assignment assignment you are now my big headache things in my university life, i would like to kick you out from headache mind !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cant write more already haha

(under crazy mood, due to crazy thinking again)

brother

hahaha big lough for 3 time
this is one of the way release stress, before 3.30 o'clock today i was very stress for past 1 week, after that time i was a bit release, but not using laughing 3 time, is chatting to someone.
it sound like idiot, a male using chatting to release stress but not gaming but is true to tell that this is true for me.
because i not a good gamer XD
talking about today, i am chatting with one junior from my secondary school, our topic to talk is very huge and time spending is very long we talk from academic, life, friend, even our behavior, impression for other.

now someone is wondering what is the relation topic and content? the topic should be chatting or gathering.
because, during the chatting, the impression i give to mu junior in the past few years is not just a senior, is also like a brother, and i just remember the same impression i give to other junior the following place, but follow is to my junior dialog


Jusco movie + your house : congratulation, you have been find your life destination and study in mmu with courses you would like to take, you said your friends from secondary school are getting least contact to you, but i told you, you are wrong because most of you want to come out but scad they are very busy, when you try to contact them and ask them, they will try to find time for to gather.


TTJ old town : lucky you din go Segi university study as you dun listen my advice, and continue study at Sunway, if you follow i will feel regards for my whole life, because you are following my instruction not your heart


mines old town + YQ camp : i dunno when you will come back from your PLKN, just remind you again that the Segi university study environment is not so good, you can ask your sister opinion, dun be always so sad with your life condition, it might become good in future. if i not mistake our first chatting is related to curricular marks XD


pat kin pat sun cafe + YQ camp:  today i was chatting with you, thanks for you spending time to me to release my stress, it makes me happy and smile always until current i am typing this post i also feel happily (crazy condition)

same primary school + YQ camp: hahaha you are the first girl to tell me that i act a brother, same primary school with you, still remember i know you from  "_ _  L_ _ _" girl and first time to chatting topic is regarding camp and invite other people. 

and other i forget already because i spending 2 hours to type this content    XD

my degree lvl 1 sem1 mid term semester break

how was my sem break holiday ?
i cannot define by one word, because it was not just fun, boring , great, good, happy, sad.
is all together. as mention previous post,
i have made time table for this ween, so how was the result of it?
i just can give 60% to myself, compare foundation year it was becomes worst
the reason is my group members did not come to college, and i cannot update and conduct the meeting and separate task. should i blame them or i should blame myself that did not care the other and did not give them free time to do their things.

i have post to fb that, we will have another meeting on tomorrow i hope they will come.
tomorrow, i will conduct three meeting, and i hope i can do it.

FUDCon KL 2012

have my first time event in my college,
this post supposed is updated and post already, but i dunno why it still in the draft
i have bad habit, never record on time, and times is going i will be forget about the event.

anyway FUDCon KL 2012 is a great event i have, but it still have a lot of improvement need to be done
at other country they setup for 1 years, but us is setup by 8 weeks,

but everything still okay =)

Some time

Some time, some how i also dun know what am i doing,
waiting the other coming, waiting the responds
now i am feeling very angry and no mood to do my task
i dunno who should i scold, i should scold at me or group mate.
i setup timetable for the whole week, what i want

BB = Busy + blur

currently i was very busy with a lot of staff, until i feel i am getting fatter and fatter, due to not follow schedule for eating.

currently, i have receive 4 assignments already in this semester, and some more i want to join 2 IT events.
1 is for FUDCon KL 2012 which is this Friday will begin the event, next event will be on 5th of June for Puppetcamp.
it sound very annoying and stupid that i want to join event whereby i am very busy with my main thing.
there is a reason behind i join this few event, first i dun have IT background and knowledge, what i have is the story behind of a successful IT leader. u dunno what is TCP/IP. so i want to join event to improve myself.

and this semester assignments are very horrible, all is group assignment, i feel like going to hell like that

feel boring and annoying to mention assignment, just stop it at here

tension

i though i can stay back on today to do something for my task as i plan, but unlucky i think i could not do it, because of tension, tension comes from i dunno how to do and i was fell very sleepy.

arrrhhh...

what should i do and how

changing

A lot of changes is happen around me, especially related to college. Starting a new level and meet new friends is a good things for everyone including me. But unlucky this will not last longer for me. 

this semester i can said all is group assignment and having group member is my painful, i do not know i want to find who to becomes my members.and when we form the groups i feel like they are not really like to working together. 

make a big mistake !!!!!!

for TA, currently i just have become normal back, least mistake, but try to make it becomes zero. 

a shadow of me

just now, i am having dinner in a very, very busy restaurant. we almost wait for 45 minutes for our food to come on our table. when i look at their services i feel i am stand alone with them, i feel my service provide at college is not good enough what i think.

i feel they are my shadow of me, my family members always said the bad of them, but i din, cause i know what exactly they feel, because i have same problem also.

i feel i am looking my shadow

degree level one semester one

have just started for my degree level one classes, i could not said i am free or busy, the thing i can said is so far so good.
the bad thing is i just know all the T2 in my previous class they are very hate me since semester 1, i not sure what i have been did, i just know i be the person who i dislike also.
currently i am rushing for father to give me 190 Pound to paid the study fee the dead line is on next Tuesday.

the good things is just one i know how to do my first programming and can earn more for this month
 and i hope i can do more than i think

arrive degree level one

just now my father write another check for my study around 9k my father will spend. 

my father said it was very expensive and ask me when the loan can borrow, 

and now i am worry is about the GCI class, i not sure i want to take money from he or not. 

some more i haven take my spending money. 

suddenly, i remember one of my friend who is my junior a female she know the study fee is very expensive and she started to working. how was her study? she still continue her study by study night class. 

morning she will have to work at a company with a salary. 

she was telling me she was not enough financial to paid her study and borrow from her father 

when i know this i feel very sad and admire about her, sad because of her situation admire because of her perseverance 

so i decide to use my personal money for my GCI class, and i hope i can find partner for my journal trip and have partnership before my degree level 3

trip with old friend and secret with her

yesterday, i meet a lot of old friends, most of them are my secondary school friends and is my junior. unfortunately i din take any photo with them just because most of them are girl and i shy to take photo with them.
we meet at Serdang KTM, we will going Midvalley for education fair, why related to me? because i want have relax for awhile, by not doing any staff related to home and college. and second reason is she might be going to there also (meet her at KTM)
at Midvalley we separate into few groups of course i am following her this is one of my motive to do thisBF.
i feel a little bit surprise of her friend mention that, even though is a small things, but for me is a big deal =]
during i help them to ask the question from the promoter and student service from different college.
i also feel like i am her BF including she help me to buy lunch and i help her to paid book at counter i feel super double happy on yesterday.
i have been travel 6 years regarding this relationship, i dunno can i find another people to replace her
this is the secret between her, me and feel our friends know about this i hope this doesn't adjust our relationship as best friend.
the relationship between us will continue until another girl same as her appear in front of me and i will said will build another relationship. and i will said if another relationship is reach the time and married and i will invite them in my wedding

post 401

i just know i am writing post 401 (including 2 draft)
dunno why currently after start study in college and join the team
i begin not take the exam important, even though is still important for applying scholar and loan
i just prepare for my exam tomorrow, every things just okay not very good.
in this post i would like to said that i want to set up a new objective after exam
is different from the begin of year
is more specific.
i want to off, before i forget i still have exam for tomorrow

no mood

GG first time say this in my blog
dunno why dun have the real mode for preparing my exam
this few days when i prepare for my exam, i am not using 100% of spirit to do on it.
when i saw facebook status most of my friend also doing the same things as me
facebook +study means when stress just come to facebook
tomorrow is last day for preparing i hope everything is okay and fine.

begin of new semester after 3 days holidays
study in degree level 1, need to think about the financial problem, bla bla bla
a lot of problem need to face again, but this is our life we need to face it, but one things i dislike to face is re-module. please far away from me

currently i have new blog to follow, i just knew her currently.
her blog is interesting to view it, a lot of different things i can know from there

worry

dunno why i started to worry about the girl and try to help her as i can do it
but she din do it better, i hope she will change and do it better
and join the team

the movie "John Carter"

Just watch the movie “John Carter”

Is a very nice movie, but dunno why, there is few screen between changing the situation or section the smooth of the movie is not that good, i feel that the Malaysia government or cinema manage are try to make it short 

if possible i would like to buy a DVD for this movie (if my financial is better than now)

in this movie, i just know that the fiction story are very interesting, novel is more better than movie, some part of  novel is not show on the movie, if my English is more better than now i would like to buy some fiction novel. 

another problem is the fiction novel cover is not look attractive, and there is no synopsis at back of the novel, and i do not know what are the type of novel and what it is talking about. 

now i have buy a fiction novel book from Popular Bookshop i hope i can read it finish. 

and now i try to download the fiction novel series of "John Carter" from internet

now i just know time is not enough for humans, 

and currently i try to spend on useless things.

i hope i can change it as well 

the movie poster 

meet a nice girl

today after the meeting,
i have bring a girl back to home, she look very nice.
and i have chat with her
hope she can continue at the team and i can communicate with her

daily in college

20th Feb - Monday
no duty on night shift, i should say i lucky i not requested for it, cause i am not feeling well on that day,
my throat feeling some things inside.
i have decide to change the topic of CIT assignment to Google Cloud, but its very difficult also to do it, i have change the topic with tutor, but haven discuss with group members, on the same day i discuss with them, majority of them disagree with it, i should follow with them, so we decide to ask our lecturer opinion on tomorrow.

21st Feb - Tuesday
din take medicine yesterday, not feeling very good today, and another lucky for me to said is i never request duty for today. We have discuss with our lecturer, he said we should continue our assignment topic not need change to another topic, i feel relax cause we not need to redo again for our assignment for changing a new topic still remain the same things, having medicine and have good sleep

22nd Feb - Wed
wake up very early, cant do anythings the nose haven clean up still got nasal, cant concentrate to do my assignment for CIT and PT, just can finish for PT assignment for tomorrow presentation, and for tomorrow meeting, sorry to said i cant do anythings for tomorrow CIT meeting.

23rd Feb - Thurs
today morning shift have a bit rushing for deployed machine to APIIT admin and S.S department
after that rushing for going for OSE class for presentation. during OSE presentation, i feel i have a bit bad for the performance, like i am talking somethings before showing the slides, after showing the slides i always said "as i mention....." i need to have improve for this.
during PT another presentation, but for PT i feel very comfortable and good performance for past 3 weeks i hope i still can have good performance for next week and ask lecturer opinion about mine presentation improvement.
CIT meeting fail again to conduct the meeting, everything is look so ugly dun have arrangement, just can inform them speed up the task, and i will gather all the file in one and send the mail update and fb massage update by today night


this week, i feel very surfer, but until now, i still feel okay. and i have decide to join May intake no more Mar intake,as i think i need to prepare a lot of things during this 2 months, hope i can preparing well, if not all my time and affect is becomes burbles

stress up

begin today midnight until now i haven finish all my task yet, and now i receive tension sms to me
i dunno how i want to solve this problem, i feel my heart is burning and my liver is booming my kidney is kind of faster machine in the world.

how can my assignment be like this such situation

i want to ask how much time i leave to survive in this world,
the thing i hope the next Monday i still can come back to home safety.

panic

i am very panic for having a car or transportation
having a car we need to have maintenance for it
last week is small car water tank spoil
this week is the big car fan spoil
What the hack is this ==''
one is 19 years and another just 10 years!!!
i cant believe the 10 years car have a lot of problem
tomorrow how should i go to college
panic now very panic
especially i have duty on night shift for recently
is very suffer and hard

semester 2 busying

Totally very stress,

Need to keep on update for two assignments, it was make me very nervous I should said thank you for the OSE group members you all make me feel happy and scads also >.<

I do not know how you all were thinking, but in my mind, I was very stress, if my group members did not give me any task to do it. Especially in semester one, I have tried and I know it.

I feel happy to have you all in my group, I do not know how was me in your mind, but I hope it wasn’t too bad for you all (cause you all always keep comment other people)

Enough for express continue my work, tomorrow still need to work with father. I hope I can finish 65% by today all the works. 

briefing for trip

today we all have the briefing for the trip,
we all lough together long  time we din do like this already
just hope our trip is very fun, before waiting the trip i need to do a lot of things by tomorrow and Thursday

and i will post a lot of picture after the trip

just hope i can do it so
nothings much to write, ut i still have a lot of assignment and things need to do research

another surfer time

another surfer time again for me to do it

dunno why is it just happen for me 

i need to balance my time for study and work again 

every time happen when exam is coming soon 

i hope this is my last change 

memory picture

when i take this picture? i also dunno
but when i saw this picture i can recognize everyone inside the picture
when we talk about this picture, we all also dunno when we take this
i just can said time is passing so fast
and time is just like magic

CNY 2012 - day 2

Second day of CNY

Today not things happen just watch some ghost movie and play few round of mahjong

Today will going back to KL nothing special for me. I just saw one of my cousin her dressing is change a lot

Is changing become more beauty and her mobile phone keep on ringing

Haha, not like me just like normal nothing change

The CNY just end like this

Not like previous

I have a bit blur what I happen been dome last year CNY

After this I went back I have a look

As I remember two years ago I play mahjong and Jack 21 I win a lot but not this year I lost a lot ==''

Previously I just hope I can put some attractive post by CNY but it does not

Raining day short period for CNY

I just hope on Langkawi trip next week will be more fun for me

Meanwhile I am typing at here my grandmother was chat with me, she mention about the cousin and aunt, from the conversation I saw the powerful of time

When I reach her age how I will be during CNY

Am I will be alone ? Am I sitting together with my grandchildren?

Hope I will be more better. =]

CNY 2012

Frst day of CNY

I update this post without using blog but is update in my PC

This year Chinese new Year a bit boring for it, cause on 30 and 1st night the day was raining

A lot of friend could not do any things including me cannot see firewood and cannot go Tanjung with a big family to have rojak and view the sea site, a bit miss last year movement when we go there.

Even though is CNY now, but I still need to complete my assignment between CNY

I sound so wired and boring, but is true I need to complete it and send the draft to lecturer by this Thursday

On my father site I still can chat together, but on my mother site here, I feel nothings to do at here, just feel like normal day in house at KL

Now I can feel what it means by "CNY not like CNY no more CNY in our life"

Miss the time miss the movement we having fun

The year when I was kid, it just a part of memory now

I hope after the CNY I will become normal back and continue my life like a hell

Haha 

meet her

today i went back early so i decide go to Mines for awhile because i want searching for my sport shoes for repair. while i am searching i meet her again, but this time i try to not looking to her, but she ran quickly away.
dunno what is the reason. is she still remember that morning sms ? or other?

i not sure about this and dun go and ask her.

now i just hope we still have chance to meet each other and chat

chat with an old friend

just now attending my mother company CNY dinner

i feel very excited to attend it, cause one of my primary school friend was attend to there also. 

we chat at there along the dinner, we talking about college, gathering, our friends, our memory and etc. 

we also talking about the trip actually i never think before a friend will have same idea with me 

i want a trip before i graduate, but he was different, he want the trip after graduate. 

but at least i have the same dream with him, now i feel very happy because i found a partner in my trip. 

i just hope he will remain the same dream and feeling 

maybe after 2 years or next year end of the year i will organize the trip, but i hop e the trip partner is 4 to 6 persons and study in different area. now i have found a accounting i need to find another 4 more peoples 

i hope i can find peoples have interest it and want to join. 

what happen to me

next week Tuesday is another nightmare day again for me 

i dunno how to face it. 

at here i have make a lot of problem. 

like this time i forget to send the mail regarding presentation room. 

i just have update for one presentation room and another i forget to do it.

and affect the team have been scold from supervisor or manager also can be happen when they call me. 

when i review my blog again my post with tag of technical assistant 

almost all of the tag is about the unhappy things 

in my mind i am thinking a things which will affect my feeling i was very sad just now. 

i try to watch drama to avoid think about it, but watching the drama is also talking about the efficiency of work. 

suddenly I think that my attitude like this always forget the things can be handle the job to save a person to get in prison or death, is a very important job.

i hope i still can stay in the team and make some change on myself, but how should i do?

facing problem

this problem is not a big problem, i just dunno how to solve it.
when i facing the girl who is same class with me i talk to them with english i will be talk like hesitant.
but when i talk to TA girl in english is still okay.

sound like funny, but seriously if i dun fixed it,
i will be like feel very shame that study in IT that speak in broken english and poor language

lesson for revise & advise

just now was having of discussion, that remind me again about the give and take.
we all must give somethings to someone without expert the person feedback.

just now i was thinking that is the person join this team means that the person result will be not the best one.
i hope this is not true for it and i will prove for it.

recently does not have mood to update blog in detail with a lot of picture.
but i hope in CNY and the trip will let me upload nicely with words and picture.
i hope i can do it.

partners in my travel

suddenly i remember my plan again just now of the movement
i want to find partners in my college or my life that can spend time to have discuss and discover the IT, business, engineering and doctor areas. of course the most important area is IT.
we will discuss and analysis each other idea and discover what is weakness and strong.
and give opinion.
and we will spend our time for a travel that travel whole west malaysia
from north to south, penang to johor.
by spending least money using bicycle, to look around of malaysia

now my classmate i cant find this type of friend around me, except 1 or 2 peoples
and this 1 or 2 peoples i also not sure are they having same idea to do the same things
i hope before i graduate in degree i can spend my time to do this travel

my new target in year 2012

set up a new target at here and put beside blog remind me every time 

• Get first class or at least second upper for my degree level 1
• Start GCI class during first level  
• Know how to use and set up Linux server (Ubuntu, Fedora)
• Know how to use Windows server 2008 R2
• Try to went overnight with friend  [countdown, celebrate]
• Try to buy tablet  (iPad2, under RM950 )
• A DSLR camera [canon] to snapshot memory with friend ^^
• Try to control my money spend [as much as I cam lor]
• Keep fit [BMI under 26]