changing

A lot of changes is happen around me, especially related to college. Starting a new level and meet new friends is a good things for everyone including me. But unlucky this will not last longer for me. 

this semester i can said all is group assignment and having group member is my painful, i do not know i want to find who to becomes my members.and when we form the groups i feel like they are not really like to working together. 

make a big mistake !!!!!!

for TA, currently i just have become normal back, least mistake, but try to make it becomes zero. 

a shadow of me

just now, i am having dinner in a very, very busy restaurant. we almost wait for 45 minutes for our food to come on our table. when i look at their services i feel i am stand alone with them, i feel my service provide at college is not good enough what i think.

i feel they are my shadow of me, my family members always said the bad of them, but i din, cause i know what exactly they feel, because i have same problem also.

i feel i am looking my shadow

degree level one semester one

have just started for my degree level one classes, i could not said i am free or busy, the thing i can said is so far so good.
the bad thing is i just know all the T2 in my previous class they are very hate me since semester 1, i not sure what i have been did, i just know i be the person who i dislike also.
currently i am rushing for father to give me 190 Pound to paid the study fee the dead line is on next Tuesday.

the good things is just one i know how to do my first programming and can earn more for this month
 and i hope i can do more than i think

arrive degree level one

just now my father write another check for my study around 9k my father will spend. 

my father said it was very expensive and ask me when the loan can borrow, 

and now i am worry is about the GCI class, i not sure i want to take money from he or not. 

some more i haven take my spending money. 

suddenly, i remember one of my friend who is my junior a female she know the study fee is very expensive and she started to working. how was her study? she still continue her study by study night class. 

morning she will have to work at a company with a salary. 

she was telling me she was not enough financial to paid her study and borrow from her father 

when i know this i feel very sad and admire about her, sad because of her situation admire because of her perseverance 

so i decide to use my personal money for my GCI class, and i hope i can find partner for my journal trip and have partnership before my degree level 3